1/30/15

Tomorrow will be my last day in the morning shift. I'm feeling anxious since I don't really want to go back to my previous shift. I already enjoy working in the morning shift and now I'm going to be stuck to a shift I don't like. The only good thing going for me is that I have a better chance of saving money like I used to.

I hate the feeling of loneliness at work which I felt a lot due to the lack of people to talk to. I'm worried about the possible string of errors I'll commit.

The month has passed by so quickly that I haven't even accomplished what I wanted to do this past month. I'll save it for next time then.

1/29/15

I hate how I always end up torturing myself emotionally. I've always had a tendency to think of the worst case scenario and put myself in such a dark place to be in.

My pessimism is such a glaring thought in my mind that I amazed on how I manage myself to appear upbeat and cheerful. It's always like that when I'm i other people's company but when I'm alone, I can't help myself from having the thoughts of being isolated and even hatred from others.

I have a tendency to assume that people I know either hate me or forget about me. Sometimes, I have good reasons but in the end, I usually get proven wrong.

I hate the feeling of one-sided relationships/friendships and simple acts of kindness from my friends are moments of treasure for me. I don't want to appear spoiled or desperate for attention but it's nice to feel reassured by my friends that they are there for me, even in small ways.

I'm sure that it's my mind's way to deal with disappointments and unwanted results but I still end up disappointed and miserable. I don't know if I can contain this mindset since I am sure that I won't be able to shake it off easily. All the smiles and laughter seem to be ineffective to build a positive outlook in life.

1/26/15

The past week was such a blast.

Celebrated my birthday with my closest friends from work by treating them to dinner and a whole day in Enchanted Kingdom. Had sleepovers and attended my officemate's music gig in Katipunan.

This month is certainly a great month and it is certainly a shame that it is about to end.

Our EK trip was definitely better than the last time we went there. We got to ride more rides and try out the newly-opened ride called the Air Race which spins around 360 degrees. There were plenty of people but not as crowded than last time. I'm glad the weather cooperated.The lines moved pretty fast and we arrived at the park early so we really got to go on a lot of rides.

I've spent so much this month, but it was all spent on worthwhile expenses.

I'll be in a different shift again by next month and I suppose I won't be having too many gimmicks by then so it might get me the chance to get back on saving money.

1/20/15

So is this what 25 feels like? :)

I can't believe it's been another year. What a year has passed by and it definitely is one of the best in recent memory.

I've gained so many life experiences which made me restore my positive outlook in life.

Sure, there are a number of heartbreaks that were very painful, but there are bright spots that are worth focusing on.

I don't think I can handle a quarter life crisis, even horoscopes are saying that this isn't a good year for those born under my zodiac. I'm choosing to ignore them right now. Gotta keep the positive vibes going!

This year, I decided to celebrate my birthday by treating my friends. We had dinner at California Pizza Kitchen in Greenbelt and enjoyed a movie over my officemate's condo while having drinks. We watched the movie "Gone Girl" which certainly left an impression.

I'm more than happy to welcome my 25th birthday with some of the best people in the world I know.

Here's to more birthdays!

1/18/15

These past few days, I've been staying at a hotel paid by my company. The pope is currently in the country and some of the roads were closed at certain periods of time. The company offered hotel accommodations to those who will be affected. I took the offer and have stayed there for four nights. This wasn't really the first time the company offered accommodations. I've been offered a lot especially when there are storms, but this is the first time I've accepted their offer. I'll treat it as the company's gift to me! Haha!

I'm definitely not the most religious person but seeing the pope even just on TV gives me a different kind of positive energy. His energy and charisma is one-of-a-kind and you can't help but to smile and appreciate his genuine concern for the people. I'm sad that I didn't get to see him in person but that doesn't make me feel less blessed. His visit seems timely as it almost coincided with my 25th birthday. Though I'm thankful that his visit is not that long as I have plans on the day that he leaves and traffic would be a  problem if he stayed longer.

I plan to have dinner with my friends tomorrow and perhaps wait until midnight to welcome my birthday. I'm turning a quarter of a century old and I don't want my life to become stagnant like how I'm feeling now. Maybe this is just a crisis I'm going through but it sure is depressing to feel like I haven't achieved enough.

1/12/15

Well, that was fast. I'll be in another shift next month. I'm still enjoying the morning shift but good things don't last forever. It's probably not as bad as it would be. It would help me save some money and next month will be such a depressing month so it would be a good distraction. 

1/11/15

So my birthday is coming up and as I mentioned, I can't make up a list of what gifts I want to receive. However, I do have some things that I've been saving for since last year as well as things that I plan to start saving on.

*A new laptop
As much as I like my current laptop, it's already too damaged. Its keyboard is falling out and it's hard to type. It's becoming slow, the disk drive isn't working anymore, I have to use an external mouse because the cursor buttons on the mouse pad isn't working anymore, and many other things. I've been able to save a certain amount of money but it's not enough yet. I don't have a specific model or brand yet but I'm leaning towards buying a Mac.

*An external HDD
The one I had is already non-functional which is depressing because I had some files there that I want to retrieve. The hard drive on my current laptop is already full and it's difficult to choose which files to delete.  I already have enough money to buy one but I'm waiting for a new laptop before buying one.

*A DSLR
I'm no professional but I think this is a good way to start a new hobby.

*Good pair of headphones
I usually wear earphones but I want to have a headphone with good quality that I can use when listening to my CDs at home with my discman.I'm scared to buy an expensive one right now because I'm afraid to break it.

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Now those are just some material things I want. There are things I want that are more for experience like being able to travel alone or with friends, living alone, and maybe things like starting my own business. I know these things won't happen but it's worth mentioning right now.

1/10/15

This day was going smooth until the ride home. I can't believe it took hours just to get home on a Saturday evening. It's not even raining, a holiday, or a work day.

Today, I decided to go around the mall looking for stuff to put on my birthday wishlist. That sounds so materialistic but I'm doing it so my friends can have a idea of what to give. Most of what I really want are either intangibles or too expensive. It was difficult for me to find what I can list down. I haven't even decided where to eat on my birthday yet.

I have one week to decide.  

1/8/15

I still can't believe how fast time passes by. I haven't really decided what to do for my birthday even though it's coming up so soon.

I've been troubled about so many concerns that I don't even know where to begin. From the most personal up to the most ridiculous issues, I can't seem to get myself together. Is this what a quarter life crisis feels like?

1/6/15

I've been in my new shift for a couple of days now and I'm starting to adjust to it. Unfortunately, it's just temporary since my KPI last December is low so I expect to be transferred to the mid shift again, or worse, the graveyard shift. But I don't want to talk about that now.

Both shifts have it's pros and cons.

In the morning, time certainly flies so fast while the mid shift seems to take forever before it ends. I'm also trying to get used to working around so many people again since there are only a few people in the office during the mid shift, especially during meal time. It's easy to eat any time I want since the pantry area is empty while I had to fight for space during lunch. The morning is also more noisy as expected but I like it that way. I also like the fact that our boss is around during the morning shift so I know who I can run to when I encounter certain situations. But the thing I hate the most about the morning shift is the amount of money I have to spend. I have to shell out a larger sum of money just to go to work because I have to take a special ride in the tricycle due to the lack of passengers. I leave the house at around 4:30 am so it's natural that there wouldn't be so many people who are awake by then. Even worse, people in the morning shift don't get to experience even just a hour of night diff. unlike the mid shift who gets at least an hour worth of additional pay. It could have compensated for the additional transportation costs.

I also get tempted to buy food before going home. Just earlier today, I had to resist myself from buying soda and limited myself to snacks.

I should probably make a more detailed lists of pros and cons for both shifts. I'll try to make sometime for it soon!

1/5/15

I joined my first ever fun run yesterday with my friends. It was the third installment of the Color Manila Run which was held in BGC.

There were 5 of us who ran and 4 of us were there for the first time. I didn't think I needed to do it since I wasn't trying to lose weight but it was a good opportunity to bond with my officemates and try something new.

There were 3 options on what routes to take, 3K, 5K, and 10K.  We decided to run the 5K race since most of us were newbies. A lot of participants attended the event. I heard that it was even sold out so we were lucky to register as early as last month.

The route took place in roads around BGC. One of the main attractions of the race was that colored powder is thrown at the runners while running. It was certainly something everyone enjoyed. Our bodies became a full canvass filled with colors. Our hair looked like it had a dye and the roads were covered with various bright colors. I felt bad for my shoes but it's a good thing that the powder was easy to wash away.

I'm so glad to have joined the run with my friends. It really is a fun event and not meant to be a competition. Some runners even ran with gimmicks like wigs and costumes.

The assembly time was at 5:30 am while the actual run started at 6:30 am. Our run took around 45 minutes to finish. We could have finished faster but we tried to enjoy the run by taking pictures and taking a rest when necessary.

After the run, we were given medals and colored powder packets as souvenirs. We watched the mini party/celebration after the run where contests and music were played.

We left the place and decided to take a shower at our friend's condo.

Our adventure didn't stop there. We had lunch at a restaurant nearby then took a bus to the north as we planned. Being a resident at a Southern city, I haven't got the chance to visit some malls in the north. 

We went to Ayala Fairview Terraces and watched the local Filipino film "English Only, Please". I normally don't watch local films but we had no choice. But the movie had good reviews so we watched it out of the other choices. The movie is surprisingly good and funny! We transferred to Trinoma via FX to have dinner and chill out before going home.

I announced my plans to treat them for my birthday and I'm already excited for that! I'm not sure of where I'll treat them yet but I just want to spend it with them.

I'm so glad that it's my day-off today.My body hasn't had enough rest/sleep since the start of the new year. But it's not a big deal. My year is starting great so far. I hope this is a sign of good things to come.

1/1/15

Happy New Year, everyone!

I can't believe that 2014 is over! It's been such a good year to reflect on.

I found myself employed in a new job, I've been to several concerts, my CD collection grew in large amounts I've had, learned new things as well as learned new stuff about myself, and most of all, I met new people that I can proudly call my friends.

I've enjoyed plenty of adventures this year with their presence and helped me become a better person overall. I learned how to appreciate the small things in life.

This coming year, I hope to take more risks and chances. I want to strive harder and accomplish more goals.