last day of 2005

how time flies so fast...

last night,i was playing text twist out of boredom....i dunno...i just like playing those kind of word games...anyway.....i made history last night again.....i was already the top scorer out of all people in my ym list then last night,i once again bested myself and made my score higher...it would have been higher if there were more time.....you see,it was like 12 mn while i was playing so my parents would probably kill me if they saw me using the pc at that time so i had to stop the game...

i also received this t-shirt as a gift from my aunt...

i don't know why,but lately,i have been having strange sleeping habits...i usually sleep at 12mn lately and i can't sleep!it's like i have insomnia....damn...everytime i check the clock,it's like an hour has passed by already and i haven't sleeped yet!!!...so i woke up around 10:30am this morning and i can't remember what time i slept...but for someone who haven't had enough time to sleep,i didn't really felt sleepy when i woke up...

so as i said,as i woke up this morning,i listened to the radio to see if there will be year end countdowns like they usually do...and i actually missed the half of the 99.5RT top 100 countdown!!!so i just stayed glued to the couch to listen to what's left of the countdown and luckily,there were recaps....the countdown actually started at 6am and it ended at 5 pm...there were 23 opm song in the countdown including the no. 1 song which was KLSP by Spongecola...the runner up to that song was Pussycat dolls' Stickwitu....many listeners actually complained when her Mariah's We Belong together only reached #11....she actually had 4 songs on the countdown...Its like that was at #40,Dont forget about us was i think at #17 and i think Shake it off was at #13...that's not pretty bad compared to the other entries...im so disappointed that Hilary Duff's Wake Up didn't make it....i really loved that song...there were songs in the countdown that didn't deserve to the countdown though,not that i hated those songs but i didn't know that those songs existed..they're so unpopular that i can't even remember what they were or who the artists were....Destiny's Child's Cater 2 u was at #89 and soldier at #61(or 71?),Killers' Mr Brightside was at #18,Good Charlotte's We Believe at #8,Pussycat dolls' Dontcha at #20,J. Lo's Hold you down at #16(or 17?),Gwen Stefani's Cool at #19,Natalie's Energy at #4,Akon's Lonely at #95,BEP's My Humps at #86,Kelly Clarkson's Because of you at #56 followed by Since U been gone at #55,Sugababes' Push the Button at #41,Diana DeGarmo's Emotional at #50,Kimberly Locke's Could have been was at #49,Rihanna's Ponn de replay at #36,Frankie J's How to deal at #90,Alicia Keys' Unbreakable at #100...a lot of OPM bands also dominated the countdown,in fact,the top 10 song were like 98% opm....Hale's The day you said goodnight at #3,Cueshe's Stay at #9 and Sorry at #6,Session road's Leaving you at #5...other hits in the countdoen were Lindsay Lohan's Over,First and Rumors,BEP's Don't Lie and Don't Phunk with my heart,Gwen Stefani's Rich Girl,Switchfoot's Stars,Chaos' Crabbucket,Snoop Dogg's Signs,Alicia Key's Karma,Carrie Underwood's and Bo Bice's Inside your heaven,MYMP's Tell me where it hurt's,Hale's Kahit Pa and Broken Sonnet,Ryan Cabrera's 40 kind of sadness,Amerie's 1 thing,Jojo's Not that Kind of Girl,Green Day's Wake me up when september ends and Boulevard of Broken Dreams,Natalie's Going Crazy and Where are you,Ciara's 1 2 step,Brie Larson's She said,Marion Raven's End of Me,Simple Plan's Shut up,Mario's Let me love you,Avril Lavigne's He Wasn't,Maroon 5's Must Get outJason Mraz's Wordplay,Gorollaz' Feel Good inc.,Coldplay's Speed of Sound,Rivermaya's You'll be safe here,and so much more...

we'll be spending New Year's eve at our aunt's house....

that's all for now...i still need to get an attire...

holler back..

wasted day..

ok..so i haven't blog yesterday...but i guess there's nothing to blog...

anyway,we went to SM today...and i shouldn't have come along if i knew what's gonna happen....you see,i thought we were going to this place in front of SM megamall called St. Francis Square and it's something like a bazzaar...so i thought i might be able to buy something interesting there....but they quickly changed plans along the way and we got ourselves to SM makati instead...and all we did was buy some gifts for the rest of the people who still have no gifts..and that's what we did for the whole day so it was really tiring..although i did see this cute shirt at surplus so i'll just come back for it...

oh well,new year's eve is coming close...

holler back..

1 passed...4 to go...

im so damn happy!!!i can't believe i passed the entrance test of La Salle!!!!

at least im sure that i'll go to college....

so i started to browse the websites of the other schools i took then while i was browsing at UST,they asks for the test permit number to get the results and i completely forgot mine!!!oh my...oh well....i might not study in UST anyway..

so i watched Family Stone today...it wasn't as interesting as i thought it would but it was a good movie....

holler back..

day after christmas..

ok....so there is no christmas hangover this year..

i finsihed Just Like heaven in the morning...it was a cool romantic movie but it was kinda short....but i still liked Reese Witherspoon's performance in this movie..

then i just read my pocketbook the rest of the afternoon...and did a little bit of the internet...i have been browsing on the movies of 2005 and i came upon this website which i think was www.bbc.co.uk or something...and it has its reviews on the films released in 2005...they list it according to the month released so i checked on it one by one and looked at the reviews on the different films...i cant believe the ratings for the Wallace and Gromit:curse of the were-rabbit movie,they gave it a 5 out of 5 stars,in other words,perfect rating!even the users ratings were perfect and it was the only movie that got that rating...it was a very horrible movie!!!i can't even last 3 minutes of that film!!!then they also have the list of upcoming films of 2006 and i cant believe that Prime(starring Uma Thurman and Meryl Streep) which was already shown here in the Philippines haven't been shown there in the US yet until January...and the same as Saw 2....which was already shown there late this year and it still haven't been shown here yet....that is understandable since we're always late in the movie scene....

anyway,i watched Kingdom of Heaven thinking that i would get interested since Orlando Bloom was in the movie but i was wrong,i was really bored to death...i tried everything to do just to distract me and keep me active..i know you might think that i should just stop the film but im just plain crazy sometimes and not do the right thing...anyway,my mom is also watching it....though not completely..but it's not really the movie which i hate..i mean the movie and its plot was okay but i was never a fan of those kind of *how do you call it?* epic? films.....such as this and king arthur,gladiator and those with knights....troy would be allowed since i liked it...but still,don't expect me to like those movies...

so i plan to watch Family stone tomorrow...

oh,belated happy birthday to Ramel and Mikhail..

holler back..

a boring christmas..

ok....so things didn't go well as planned...

we had our lunch here in our house since we didn't go to merville for lunch because everybody woke up late....

so i just watched Transporter 2 in the afternoon.....then i watched Just like heaven afterwards....but in the middle of the movie,my dad arrived from somewhere and told us we were going to Merville...i guess it's for dinner..so we went to our grandparent's house in merville.....it was actually boring when we went there....there was nothing to do....unlike the past years where there were usually a party or gathering.....but not this year.....i guess nobody is really into the christmas spirit......my grandparents didn't even bother to put christmas lights outside the house or put up their big christmas tree...their gifts are just junked on the carpet...anyway,we went to Jollibee for dinner...i can't believe we're eating on a fastfood chain on christmas!!..nothing special...then we went back to merville....i should just have stayed home and watched some dvds...

anyway....we got home already...and i just missed Bourne supremacy on HBO..and i hate it that 13 going on 30 will be shown on the 31st....i won't get to watch it since we always celebrate on our aunt's house....

holler back...

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!

Merry Christmas!!

Merry Christmas everyone!

so let's talk about how i celebrated Christmas...

so as i said,we went to our grandparent's house in Libis..we were the last ones to arrive which was not like the recent years...but anyway,we had the noche buena when we came there....although it was quite early...then everybody just had their own thing to do....we started to give out the gifts earlier than 12 mn...i like most of the gifts.....although i still received two oversized shirts....but i did receive a polo shirt that fits me well,a body bag with che guevara on it just like the one my friend has,a nike cap,a wallet with money inside and a timezone card which i always receive...the place suddenly turned into a mess...we had eaten cake after and we also had ice cream.....i finally got to taste the Pistacchio flavor and it was so good....then me and my cousins played smackdown vs raw 2006 on the ps2 afterwards.....we played until 1 am...then it was time for us to go since we were the only ones left....when we arrived at home,we opened the other gifts that were left behind....i got a timberland watch from my aunt and uncle from the states and i got another oversized shirt from my uncle which has the cherry 7up logo on it..we slept around 3 am....so i still feel a bit sleepy....

we might go to our other grandparent's house in Merville for our lunch....

that's all....Merry Christmas again....

christmas eve..

it's a few hours away before christmas....

we'll be celebrating christmas eve in our grandparent's house in Libis as usual..

i wonder what's for noche buena..

oh my.....i don't have an attire yet!!!!damn....i'll just grab any polo in the cabinet...

this day is kinda boring.....i can't feel the christmas spirit in the air...hmmm....

Merry Christmas everybody!!

waiting for something to happen..

today is another nonproductive day....

i just spent my morning eating watermelon seeds while watching Chicken Little with my siblings...hehe...

then we watched Fantastic 4....we were supposed to watch Batman Begins but it was broken so i just watched War of the Worlds instead...

im still waiting for something fun to happen....

christmas eve is tomorrow....but im not really looking forward to the presents cause im sure that all i will be getting are large sized shirts and shorts...

merry christmas everyone!!

holler back..

a bit disappointed..cont.

well...

my siblings watched lilo &stitch 2 and wallace and gromit that my dad bought....

then i watched charlie and the chocolate factory cause i haven't seen it yet.....it was nice...johnny depp was different...

holler back..

a bit disappointed..

i knew this day would be a bore...

i just watched Cold creek Manor on star movies this morning and ate some ham for breakfast....

then i watched Taking Lives on HBO since there is nothing to do....but in the middle of the movie,my dad arrived and i was a bit excited since i know he bought some new dvds...and i was right...he did bought dvds but then half of his newly-bought dvds were for kids...so i was a bit disappointed and he even bought the lord of the rings trilogy and we already have it so now we have a double copy of that movie.....then he also bought a dvd collection of the Paris Hilton nude video......hehe...my list is still long...i just hope both of my parents get that flight next month....

i'll blog later...

christmas break officially starts..

yehey...the christmas break has already started today...

but let me tell you first how we ended year 2005 at school,

we had our christmas epc mass in the morning...then the winners of the carolfest per level competed with each other and 3-4 sweeped all awards...but i don't care...then it was finally time to start the party in the classrooms..but me and my friends started exchanging gifts already.....i had lots of gifts..*wow*..but our food hasn't arrived yet so we had to wait for a long time...the only food that was early was the lechon...but we had to wait for the rest of the food...by the time the food came,the other sections had finally finished their party so we were the only one in the corrideor who was still celebrating the party.....so the parth was kinda boring though...our adviser's family was there....our food consisted of squid,fish,pansit and a desert of salad...the people started to leave after they finished eating...me and perry went down to meet with our other friends who were waiting in the grade school wing...then we started to leave for glorietta....but there were too many of us and our paper bags were also plenty so we had to split our jeepney ride..the first half took a jeep going to greenbelt while our half was lucky enough to get a jeep going straight to glorietta.....me,nicolo and ryan left our paper bags to the baggage counter when we arrived in glorietta..then we met the others in timezone...while the others were playing,some were checking out the movies and we all agreed to watch "In her shoes"....the movie started around 3:00 pm....and we almost filled the whole row...the movie had a nice plot but there were some scenes where i felt sleepy...and Cameron Diaz in the movie was not really fit for the role of being a too liberated and slutty careless woman...she was half-naked at most scenes...and her sister had ugly teeth and huge biceps..we went back to timezone afterwards then pau and mikhail left already while we were on the way to gb3....so me,nicolo,ryan,marcel and allan went to musicone then me and nicolo separated from them when they were gonna return to timezone...me and nicolo went to the cd booths to browse some cds but we didn't really got to buy a cd....i didn't even see a good cd...we went home afterwards....

and that's how the day ended..

today however,was so boring that i wished i was in school....hehe...

holler back..

worst performance ever..

what a big waste of energy and motivation!!!

our carolfest performance would have to be the worst....and i definitely mean it...i am so humiliated right now.....the audience didn't even listen to us seriously...i wanna cry...but since im avoiding having flu...i won't..everything went so damn wrong...the practices were better....even our costume didn't turn out well cause we just wore our jackets,nothing else special..oh well....at least electronics didn't win the top prize...

putting aside the carolfest,the day was just spent on nothing......we had practices but there were more fighting the whole day....hehe..

our xmas party is tomorrow...im so excited.....im just worrying on how to bring home the gifts secretly to the people in the house...

holler back...

king kong

i watched Mean Girls last night....it was so good to see that movie again...

anyway,today is my grandparents' wedding anniversary.....so we had lunch at Banana Leaf then we went to Market Market where we watched King kong.....the movie was good and it has a nice storyline but im sure that there were some scenes that were cut....because i didn't see some scenes that i saw in the trailer and even my brother noticed it.......damn.......and the ambience was not really good....i mean,the seats were ok but the people were noisy...some cheap girls were belting out for such a long time and making senseless remarks...but anyway,Naomi Watts fits the role...and im surprised by the sudden change of role that Jack Black has taken....some serious role...the movie started around 3:30pm and ended around 6:30 pm....so we went to the food choices where i ate a burger then we went outside the mall to regroup...we went home afterwards...

my uncle is offering my parents an iPod mini and my parents want it for me as my bday gift...but i don't really know if i want it...i would have wanted a Nano but my dad said that it has been recalled by the company since it had a negative feedback....waahhhh....i don't know what i want for my bday....

our carolfest is tomorrow!!!i hope we'll be victorious...and im so excited for our xmas party!!!!hehe...

holler back...

restless day..

i thought this day would be boring because it was just a whole day practice..

but i guess not...

the top ten students in technical were awarded during the morning assembly...then we headed to the classroom for the practice,before we had the practice,me and jessie passed our physics project....it was so cool....i hope it gets a high grade...anyway,we continued our practice and we really tried to master the actions....especially for the 12 days of christmas......we we're gonna use folders for the props...tsk tsk tsk...

me and perry paid the downpayment for the prom during recess...then we headed back to the classroom to continue the practice...by the end of the day...our performance is notably on a higher level after practicing it over and over and over again...all i hate is our costume....what we're going to wear is just our class jacket and regular school pants and leather shoes...it should have been more creative considering we're ID.....but it's not the costume that is being graded...so i guess that will do...

we were told that we are going to be the fifth performer....im surprised by it since we didn't went through the screening....

anyway,during one of the breaks,i got myself lost at one of the naughty groups and i got engaged at this malicious act.......so disgusting!!!i would have broke my bones because of the ramble...and i was consistently asked why i was saying shit all the time.....well,i dunno....it just became one of my expressions...

after we got dismissed,i didn't know what to do so i just hang around with Mikhail,Ryan and Miguel...we started talking about different stuff...such as the christmas gifts since Mikhail haven't started buying gifts and he has no idea what to buy...i said that anything would do....but i suggested that he can buy me a belt or cap...hehe...but honestly,it's about givng a gift from the heart....*aww*..

anyway,after we bid goodbye to each other,i went to glorietta..but i ate at hotshots first cause i was really hungry....then i went to tickles to buy some paperbags for my gifts cause i want to avoid wrapping gifts cause im not good at it...

i was walking around to look for more stuuf to put my gifts on when i suddenly found myself in different booths of different music companies that sells old cds at a very low price....i bought Mandy Moore's Coverage and Fefe Dobson's self-titled album....i would have bought more if there were more good cds but since they only sell the old cds,i guess it's understandable why there are only a few cds that i like..i would also have bought more if i have money...hehe...

i went home afterwards since i have nothing else to do.....the ride home was really uncomfortable since this guy sat with me in the front and he was so big and the seat was so small so only half of my butt was sitting...

i hope i could rest this weekend and that we would win the carolfest on Monday...or at least we would win the first runner up...i just don't want electronics to win.....cause they seem to be so arrogant now that they usually come on top...

holler back..

a flowergirl for a change..

we had our sponsorship for the year level mass today...and i was one of the readers for the prayer of the faithful...but another task was given to me...i was the flowergirl!!and i was the one to walk on the aisle first....so that really scared the guts out of me...anyway...i did it though while unconsciously being malandi..and because of my nervousness,i forgot to put the basket on the altar!!!oh well...the rest of the mass was fine except for the part where an offering was burned....hehe...oh....when i was reading my part,i didn't know that my voice was too small so i guess only the people in the front heard it...damn...

we had two hours of physics afterwards and we spent it in the internet lab to research on work,power and energy..

then the rest of the day was spent on practicing for the carolfest and we tried to master it with our adviser....we also practiced the entrance and exit...

we have the same schedule tomorrow...although im not sure if we still have classes tomorrow....i hope not...

that's all what happened to me i guess..

holler back..

finally...

i've finally completed my christmas gifts!!i just hope i didn't miss out on a lot of persons.....that would be the last situation i would want to be...

anyway,we just solved some problems in math and it was actually boring at first...but i solved it...then we continued watching "The Odyssey" in English...

after recess,we discussed some stuff in Economics like alternative ways of making coffee using shit and making suka out of banana..our teacher also said some bad news regarding our project...

we had practice for the carolfest during activity period but the practice wasn't really fruitful cause everybody was so not in the mood....like me..

we had PE afterwards and i got to be in the 3rd base...but it was not really tiring since only few people stayed in the base cause many of my classmates got homerun..so when it was our turn,i was really ashamed cause i couldn't hit the ball so i got out and i couldn't even hold the ball properly..what a shame on myself...

i got into trouble during our shop period cause i accidentally broke a ruler thingy which was school property.....so im in deep trouble.....waahhh....anyway,i was really bored during shop and patrick was always taking my watercolor and putting it in his head so i had to chase him everytime....hahaha....

i also had fun playing with this santa hat that my classmate brought and it made me look like a cancer patient...waahh...

we had another practice for the carolfest after dismissal and it took so long...we made moves for kumukutikutitap...and we finished it after so much scolds from the organizers..we went to the chapel afterwards to discuss what we were going to do in our sponsorship of the mass..it was around 6:00pm when we finally finished everything....

then me,jude,mao,jk,jozer,alan,prince,and manu went to glorietta by walking again..then i separated from them to buy my final gifts then i bough a book by Stephen King,"The Dark Half",so i can read something in the Xmas break...i went home afterwards..

holler back..

hs dance and the recent weekend..

last friday,the clases were cut and what we just did during the classes were really boring......i guess that's for the preparation of the high school dance..we watched the math quiz bee and we still ended up in the same position as we have been in the physics quiz bee....still in the bottom 3...our class jackets have also been given after filipino period...anyway,after we have been dismissed,

i went to glorietta to look for accessories to match my outfit...then i bumped into Mark and company..i accompanied them in buying their clothes for the high school dance....after they left,i finally bought a wristband then i quickly changed clothes in U..i went to school around 6:00pm...they would still not let students in so i just chatted with Ramel and Marr outside...when we finally got inside,the place was still empty...since we were one of the first persons to enter....the dance was held in the covered court and the food booths were found on the other covered court...by the middle of the dance,there were already lots of us so we started dancing already...it was so fun...although my knees really hurt after the dance...i have to admit though that last year's dance was a bit better,since there were more good music and a more lively participation from students last year....but still..good songs were still played this year even if it was short of some good dance songs..a rock band ended the dance and me and Nicolo got picked up by my dad...i immediately fell asleep as i arrived in the house...

last saturday,we went to the bazaar on the world trade center as we usually do....but all i bought was some fake cds of Jojo's self-titled album and Gwen Stefani's Love.Angel.Music.Baby...my mom bought some gifts for our relatives in the states..

yesterday,i took my entrance exam in CSB...the test was easy....not to mention that the proctor was somehow funny...the test only consisted of english,math and logical thinking..and there were at least 95% bosconians in the room..the test finished early as i expected then i got picked up by my family where we headed to our grandma's house in libis and just spent the whole day there..

we had a music practice today..but it wasn't really productive...i also exchannged my copy of Black Eyed Peas' Monkey Business for a new one again....i went to Glorietta after and i finally bought gifts for four people and now i only need two gifts more to complete my list...

holler back..

busy day..

hey...

my feet got so tired today....

we had an EPC mass for the celebration of the Immaculate Conception thingy...then we discussed some important homeroom matters which took so long that we didn't get to take our recess...then we had two hours of physics....we discussed our lessons and more equations to be memorized were added!!!!we had a graded activity in the lab...we just answered 6 questions from the handouts..

we were dismissed afterwards at 12 pm cause we were half-day in lieu of the said celebration....but we have a practice for the carolfest so i didn't went anywhere far.....i just bought a christmas decor which we were assigned to bring..and i switched my copies of Black eyed peas' Monkey Business and Alicia Keys' Unplugged because the cds i got were defective....then i unexpectedly bought a copy of Lindsay Lohan's latest album....i hope it works..

i went to the practice afterwards......most of my classmates were not there yet so we just killed time by playing an improvised volleyball made out nof a crumpled piece of paper...haha....the practice had finally started after my classmates came and our math teacher even listened to our performance as he passed by our classroom during practice...we also rehearsed our entrance and exit....then while we were practicing,my classmates' chitchat finally struck me on what my hairstyle will be tomorrow on the high school dance..i just hope that the style will work.....then while we were singing,i felt a tingling sensation in my right arm and it still hurts right now...i hope it will be gone by tomorrow...

i went to the mall afterwards and i headed to musicone then i went to Tower records and i ended up buying Rihanna's "Music of the Sun"...then i strolled around the mall to look for xmas gifts where i ended up again seeing Nicolo so we went around together...we wnt around Tickles,Artwork,Am blvd,Penshoppe,Citywalk...after all the windowshopping,i have bought a belt and a necklace for my attire..i'm going back tomorrow to buy a wristband also for my accessories tomorrow..

i went home after because my feet really hurts already but then another major delay was gonna happen at the terminal....the other riders were having this so-called strike against the drivers because the people are just being piled up in the seats making them feel uncomfortable and this lady keep on complaining like she was the president....then they formed a plot where they would not let the coming passengers to sit forcing them to leave the vehicle...and the driver won't leave until the seats contained eight persons each...so we had to move to another vehicle..i finally got home by 7:00pm....

i hope everything's gonna be fine tomorrow and it won't rain..

holler back..

just another average and tiring wednesday..

this day wasn't really fully loaded at school....we just checked our quiz in math and we even got a 10-minute extension to answer it....then after we checked it and our teacher collected the papers,the teacher had nothing to do so he left early so we had a free time for a short while..we had a quiz in english which was easy and i think i will only have at least 3 mistakes just because i got one wrong spelling of an island...the quiz only contained 2 essay questions..

we went to the M.I.C to browse the website of Forbes magazine and we were supposed to look for the richest person according to our class number,my class number is 29 and i got some guy named Stefan Persson....he's some guy who's company deals with retailing and his net income is $11.2 bil...then we also took a game/quiz in the site and it determines if we are going to be rich or not...im so disappointed that i am not....whaaa..but at least it's near the potential point..our club afterwards is auxilium where we followed this dance and i don't want to explain the details....but it concerns us being barefeet and being in the middle of the basketball court and a morbid music...

jessie went home afterwards because he still had audiometry thingy.....so he wasn't able to join us afterwards...during pe time,we took a practical test on catching and throwing..we continued our painting afterwards in shop but most of us was really tired by the end of the peiod because of PE..

i went to Robinsons department store in waltermart to buy a black framefor the plate....then i headed back to the classroom for the carolfest practice...but sadly,there were only very few who came so our organizer had to reschedule the practice for tomorrow since it's a half day tomorrow..

i went to glorietta afterwards but i went to the music stores first cause i want to see if Lindsay Lohan's album is out but it isn't yet....so i'll just come back tomorrow..so i just loom for my clothes for the hs dance which was my main reason why i went to the mall....i ended up buying a shirt in American boulevard...but i still have to worry about my accessories..then i bought a gift because i still lack gifts..but sadly,i only got to buy 1 gift.....

holler back..

TRUTH

this day seems to be about truth...i guess nature just want me to be aware that i have to stop these lies....and just face the truth..

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to start off,i saw this christmas special show thingy with fantasia,reuben and kell clarkson and i caught the performance of Fantasia while singing "Truth is"..

but the most truthful moment would have to be our discussion in religion...

our lesson for the 3rd quarter is all about Truth...so we had this meaningful discussion about it and it seems to affect me so much...especially that remark that no one is going to be happy when one is not telling the truth...i am not saying im a liar but it seems to affect me somehow....i try to be happy and be cheerful all the time despite problems i try to run away from....but i am really tired of running away from it...i think there is nothing to run away from anyway..i put everything in the past now and so far it works and i am living a better social life....but there are still hidden truths within me that i don't really want to be revealed or verified....im really scared of humiliation and rejection..i know it's not the right thing to do but i can't stop myself if i just suppress my feelings just to relate with people and to hide my pain and worries with other people...that's ehy i enjoy having my peers around for entertainment but i still don't feel security of sharing my secrets with them...but i know why...i just don't have enough trust with myself and i just yield to falsities and pretense..the truth really hurt most of the times but it won't really hurt when it is revealed and handled..i just want to be true to myself and just keep on being true to everybody as i always try to do...
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anyway....to be on the lighter side of the day...although it was really gloomy because of the rain....we were grouped already for the model-making in shop and im just happy with my groupmates...then we had this quiz in math that really got my brains hard work and we made a business letter in filipino....

holler back..

oops....haven't blog lately..

sorry for the delay, anyway,a lot of things happened these past few days...

to start off,my youngest brother just turned 5 yrs. old last friday so there was a cake from my grandmother....then on saturday,my family went to Eastwood to watch Chicken Little with my aunt and cousin while i went to Jessie's house to do our physics proposal and our painting in shop..we had lots of time just chatting....i got home by 9:30...just in time to see Say get evicted from the PBB house...too bad...anyway,we went to mass on sunday morning then i just spent the whole day watching tv and doing my painting...which i accidentally murdered by messing up on the roof part...and i still don't have a frame and i don't know where to buy one!!

today,we just continued with our business planning in Economics which was substituted by ma'm Violie since mr. Sigua was absent...we studied about business letters in Filipino and it was so boring..math was really confusing since we had a class work in preparation for the quiz tomorrow and i didn't understand the lessons much...so i might fail tomorrow...we discussed uniform circular motion in physics and we also got our results for the first unit test for the third quarter.....i wasn't surprised though that i failed..

we got our graduation pics already and i don't know how to react with my pic.....my lips were so pink...but it was better compared to theose who had nasty editings done on their faces which made them look they had a defective surgery...

we watched a film in English...it was about Helen of Troy...it had better effects than the other movie we watched but i like the story of the other one better...

cadd was still like studying hell...damn..

the high school dance is fast approaching and i still don't know what to wear!!!waahhhh...

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bonifacio day..

the day started with an unusual heavy rain..so i really felt gloomy...and i guess that feeling went throughout the whole day..

math was such a confusion!!the lesson was so damn agitating...at least we don't have math tomorrow...we continued watching the film in our english class...and we're gonna have a quiz about it tomorrow...

during recess,me and aj borrowed each other's cd....i borrowed Mariah Carey's Gretaest hits while he borrowed Kelly Clarkson's Breakaway...i hope we each get our cds back in good condition as soon as possible..hehe.....

we didn't actually do anything during our economics class,we just discussed something about Teodoro Agoncillo's point of view on who should be the National hero...then we just continued talking about the project...we had this orientation about the js prom,intrams and high school dance during our activity....our prom is going to be held at dusit hotel nikko...i don't know if i will be having a partner this year....i certainly hope not...then our high school dance will be held on the Savio park at Dec. 9 as scheduled,6:00-12:00mn...i still don't know what i'll wear!!we also got invited by a couple of students from CSR in their high school dance...then the intrams will be held on the week after my birthday and exams...

then PE got my ass kicked of....i got so many mistakes in our softball game and i can't even throw a ball properly......what a shame on myself...then shop was ok....at least my house is starting to have a character of its own..then the rest of the shop period was just plain boring except when i just got pissed off at one time...

moving on,i bought a master board during dismissal...then i also got to buy fake copies of Destiny's child's "#1s",Natalie's self-titled album and Fall-out boy's "From under the cork tree".....hehe..

we had practice in music afterwards....although i wasn't really in the mood to sing so i wasn't really performing today...but the practice was fun....i had a couple shares of fun from my friends during practice..

then when i was about to go home,i dropped by glorietta cause i still haven't bought gifts and i found out that some of my friends have already bought gifts for me...so i was afraid i might not have some gifts for them.....so as i was strolling along the mall.....i found myself leaving the mall with seven gifts!!and i didn't really spend a lot!!!so now my list grew shorter....

that's mostly what happened today...pretty boring and gloomy huh......

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some hearts

hey...

guess what.....i was determined to buy a fake copy of Destiny's child's "#1s" since i can't wait for the dvd edition but i guess it ran out of stock....but then,i was able to buy Carrie Underwood's "Some Hearts" instead...and so far,it works properly on my discman....so i guess it was worth buying it....and i might find myself buying a couple more albums from the place in the future....

moving on,we watched "Clash of the Titans" during English class and i have to admit that the movie is sort of confusing and at the same time hilarious because of the not-so-special effects...then we just discussed another oratorical piece....math was still confusing a little bit....religion sucks!its project i mean...well....i was chosen to be the leader of the group!!!and i definitely don't have the leadership skills!i don't know what to do....i might cause the failure of the whole group!!not to mention that my groupmatres are my peer group..oh well...we had a quiz in physics and i think i didn't get any correct answer!!but im happy with the test papers returned cause i got a perfect score in one quiz and in one assignment..then we just continued what we were doing in shop...

i can't believe i failed in the test in auxilium!!!!i will have to take a retest!!wahhh...

i hope something good is gonna happen tomorrow...

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how the celebration went...

well i was correct that we were gonna eat a meal with the whole family but it was during lunch and the restaurant that was supposed to be fancy was actually not fancy in terms of the service...

to start off,we they planeed to go have lunch in Tagaytay in a restaurant called "The Grill" with some of my aunts and uncles..so when we got there,it was alrady around 12:45...there were lots of people!and to our surprise,there were only few waiters and waitresses which is the most weakest factor of the place.....because of that we had to wait a long time for our meals....even the drinks took so long to be served...and the viands were served one by one and the gap of the time between one meal to another was long so we're like waiting for one meal to come and after that wait again for the next meal...we didn't dare to have desert cause the waiter told us it would also take a long time to be served....oh well....at least honesty prevailed.....hehe..

it rained a little on our way back to Manila...we also saw the cycling event along tagaytay for the SEA games...we headed to Alabang just to see our grandparents and some of our other relatives..we stayed there up to around 5:00pm....we went afterwards to the Don Bosco church to celebrate mass....then my family and some of my relatives went to Greenbelt to watch Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire but since i already watched the movie,i went with my other aunts and my grandparents who were gonna watch another movie,"Prime" in Glorietta..although i didn't really want to watch the movie so i watched a movie on my own....i watched "Excorcism of Emily Rose"....it was a good enough film to watch but i was a little bit disappointed because for me,it lacked some thrilling scenes....but the story is awesome...

we went to my grandparent's home afterwards to wait for the others so we watched "The Brothers Grimm" on dvd but my parents arrived already so i didn't get to watch the whole film...

so that's how the day of my mom went...oh......i forgot to mention the cake....my mom's cake was cute..instead of a big cake,it was composed of six small different flavored cakes...there was carrot cake,ube cake,strawberry cake,chocolate caramel cake,chocolate mousse,tiramisu cake..

well...today,it was really boring and it seems that everyone just doesn't feel good today....my little sister's got an upset stomach and she spent most of the day sleeping on the couch..my brother's arm is aching but we don't know why....then my mom's body is bad so she had massage today...i,on the other hand,feels like the world is falling down upon me.....my mind keeps on thinking about stuff like how im going to buy Christmas gifts with few money..and all the things we need for school!!i need money!!!waaaahhhh...and my mom won't even give me money until she gets her bonus pay from her job....grr....

school starts again tomorrow..another busy week..

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mom's bday..

today is my mom's bday...i don't really know what we'll do...but im looking forward to eating dinner in a fancy restaurant just like how a birthday in the family usually is celebrated in that way..hehe...or maybe we might just go to our grandma's house in Libis just like what we did last year...hmmm...

i watched "Cellular" featuring Chris Evans and Kim Basinger last night on HBO...i didn't expect to see it yet on tv cause it seems like it was just shown last month but then i realized that it was last year.....how fast time flies...not to mention that "13 going on 30" and "Mean Girls" are also gonna be shown on HBO next month...i want to see it since both of them are two of the best movies i've seen in 2004...

we have no classes tomorrow because wednesday is a holiday so i think they pushed it to monday..yehey...that means there's no CADD this week!!yeah..

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rough day..

today was somehow hectic...and also i felt dismayed and worried today..well..

during our shop,i just don't know what to do yet since i can't seem to get the roof right..and i still don't have a master board....

anyway,the whole day was mostly focused on the Bandage...i was supposed to go but then i didn't bring clothes and i had other stuff to do anyways...besides,i would still leave early so it would be useless and not much worthy if i still went..moving on,

math was really confusing!!!as in super!!!!this is probably the most hardest lesson we encountered...but then my seatmate taught me and i somehow got thongs clarified..same as economics,we had a quiz and it was about tax and the problem solving was hard since we had to compute for the tax refund,witholding tax and whatever....and i didn't knew how!!!so i basically failed in the first quiz...we dealt with more questions from the handouts in physics and im still confused somehow especially now that an old lesson is now used in the current lesson..we had this cooperative learning in Filipino but we didn't really do much.....we just answered something about how this author described the youth..we had our practice as usual in our music class...

there's no classes on monday and im looking forward to the three day weekend..

i asked AJ to bring his "Greatest hits-Mariah Carey" on Tuesday cause i want to borrow it....i also asked Jessie to let me borrow his Butterfly and CDaydream also fom Mariah....i don't know why im digging Mariah right now.....i guess it's just pure coincidence.....

speaking of Mariah,i bought the ultra platinum edition of "The Emancipation of Mimi-Mariah Carey" today..im actually listening to it right now...well,i spent a long time in Music One and Tower Records as i hadn't expected...i guess im just so confuse what to buy....although i already planned to buy Mariah's album today.....i listened a little to Madonna's album and the songs i heard was just fine..i also listened to Rihanna's album and Natalie's album....both cds were great also....and now i am craving for Rihanna's "Music of the Sun"....and the same goes for Destiny's child's #1s,i can't wait for the dvd edition!!!i got to buy it already even if it's just the audio cd....

i saw some parts of American Music Awards the other day...i also saw Lindsay Lohan's performance on TRL yesterday...oh...will someone tell me that Christina Aguilera is not married and Nick and Jessica are not yet split!!!nah..it is really true....i just hate the fact that Xtina married a not-so-good looking guy..

i wonder who won in the Bandage.....im sure it's not our school though..

i got my grades for the club yesterday and i can't believe my grade!!!it's so low..and not only the club grades are where my low scores are,but it seems that i am getting low scores in all the quizzes in different subjects...

oh well....that's all for now..holler back...

what a day..

well,today was somehow fun and somehow agitating....

jessie was absent so it wasn't really noisy as much when we were with him..anyway,math was such as lame as always...sometimes the lesson is easy and sometimes it's hard but then sometimes it's easy but then it gets confusing as another problem starts to pop out..

anyway,we discussed the judgment of paris and the trojan war in English today..

then we clarified some stuff in our Economics class and it was so boring..

the club meeting was very bad since we had to take this sort of exam and i didn't really know some things about it...especially the pledge and the prayer...and to add more,the whole place was a mess and it was so noisy....and can i ask,since when did donations became compulsory???you see,we are supposed to "donate" P100 for this outreach program of the club....and we are obliged to give...damn it...

then as i was changing for PE in the classroom along with Marcel,some of my classmates were also in the room....it was no big deal at first but then word wars started between marcel and my classmates and i was somehow dragged into the conflict and it was i that got pissed of.....just because an issue that was not true anymore...oh well..some people just don't know what to do with their lives that they have to drag unimportant and false issues about me..

anyway...during PE class,i got to try softball but only run from first to third base but i was not able to hit the ball with the bat and it was so good since i don't want to hit it because im afraid that i'll just be humiliated because i can't hit the damn ball..oh well.....good thing that the one before me striked out that the game was finished already for me..so while another game is going on,me,perry,patrick and brian was playing and fighting and just plainly having fun...shop was just the same.....i finished the renewed version of my perspective view and i enlarged it cause it was so small....

we had a practice for the carolfest and we started practicing our choice piece although we didn't really had a fruitful meeting,we still produced something....anyway...as the long time that we were wasting during the practice,i just enjoyed flirting around and having fun with perry and others..

after we finished the practice,me and some of my classmates walked from the school up to Greenbelt!so just imagine how long we walked...we started walking around 5:30pm then we got to Greenbelt around almost 6:00pm!so i had separated with them already to go to music one to look if they have the dualdisc edition of "#1s" but they still have none so i went home already...speaking of cds,i received the cd that i asked Ryan to burn for me and it turns out that it does not work properly so i might ask him to burn it for me again or might as well ask someone else...oh..i can't believe that Christina Aguilera is married already to some guy named Jordan Bratman..can't she find someone else?hehe....oh well,i saw Madonna's performance in the EMA's....and i cdon't want to comment on it...

well,basically,that's what happened today....

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hp day..

today was a blast!!!....i had fun today...

i got to watch "Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire" today with my friends..the movie was so great even though lots of scenes were cut like the part where Rita Skeeter was transformed into a creature....but still,it was a very cool movie...and the boys where so cute...hehe...it just intrigues me that Dumbledore in this movie is more hyperactive than the previous movies...i think professor Snape and McGonagall were the only characters that didn't change in appearance in the movie,with exception to Moaning Myrtle which understandably doesn't change in appearance cause she's a ghost...i find it peculiar that Malfoy has only two scenes in the movie....oh well....he'll have lots of scenes in the movie of book 6...

anyway,the only bad experience i had in watching the movie was that i had to forcefully preventing the call of nature...i don't mean #2.....just # 1.....and i wasn't alone.......it seemed all of us needed to use the restroom..that's why we rushed to the nearest restroom but then it was so full so we had to use the restroom in U..then we actually occupied the whole restroom since it was just small and there were many of us...Mikhail and Ramel then went back to school cause Mikhail still had barangayan thing(it's an activity in the school) and with Ramel,i dont know..i guess he just needs to go home..so that left me,Nicolo,Marcel,Pau and Ryan....we went to Human just to windowshop then Pau found a stain on his shirt so he had to leave and go to his cousins in Podium...so we just accompanied him in buying the ticket for the MRT before we had exchanged our goodbyes...then we accompanied Ryan to buy a christmas decoration for their classroom and we looked everywhere and we didn't find one...we just went around with no destination where we found ourselves hanging around in Goodwill bookstore up to the stairs in Glorietta 3 and roaming around Rustans..then they planned to go to Powerbooks in Greenbelt 3 but i decided to go home since it's already late and my stomach was not feeling good and i guess it's because of the somehow heavy food i ate in the movie.....so before i went home,i went to Tower records to buy a cd....i originally planned to buy Avril Lavigne's "Under my skin" but then i also saw a newer edition of Kelly Clarkson's "Breakaway" with videos so i had to make a crucial decision....in the end,i found myself buying both cds..i then realized that i should have been saving money instead of wasting it...but then i wasn't wasting money right??the cds were worth of it...

anyway.....im so happy that i saw Skittles again!!!i mean i know it's just a candy but it's one of my faves and i haven't seen it around lately and im longing for it...i am just surprised to see the increased price.....it is so expensive......i used to buy it at around 20+ pesos and now it's 45 pesos...speaking of high prices,we were so shocked to find the huge increase in the prices of fast foods.....cause when we were buying at Wendy's for the food in the movies,our money lacked even if everybody gave sufficient and for some,more than sufficient money for the order but then it lacked because of the stupid e-vat!!!damn e-vat..

our card distribution is tomorrow and i am so nervous about the results!!!especially in Physics!!!

oh well....holler back..

can't wait for tomorrow!

it was an awkward day today...i guess it's because of the peace in the school...

you see,the 3rd years went in an outbound then the second years watched Harry Potter 4...i think the elementary watched it too.....so our level and the first years got left behind in the school...at least the noise were not the usual irritating noise you hear from the surroundings..

anyway,we didn't do much today...

i was really pissed during our shop because i already finished the plate but then i had to redo it all over again because i made a stupid mistake.....

math was just a continuation of the lesson last week and the lesson was easy...

economics was still boring as we just discussed something about the tax and everything...

our physics teacher was gone because she watched the movie also(i think)..so it was free time although we had something to do and we just didn't care about it...and also in the period,we got measured for the class jacket and i personally think that my jacket is long for me since they based the length on the school uniform and my uniform is long for me already..and i think that our jacket needs some major redesigning because im already tired of the striped sleeves in shirts/jackets......i think it should be replaced by something nicer and unique..

filipino also sucked cause we just answered this activity in the handouts and we were also told that we were suppose to choose and memorize a lengthy literary piece for our oratorical test..

we practiced for the carolfest in our music class and i personally think that it was the most nicest and worthwhile activity that we did during the whole school period cause we just had fun the whole time and i get to sing..

there was no CAT today so i was expecting to arrive home early but the traffic was so agitating and i arrived very late than expected...

i am so excited for tomorrow!!!!i want to see the movie already and i want to get my hands on a new cd already!!my only problem is that i don't know what cd i will buy cause i really want to buy lots of cd but im just not financially gifted that i have to limit myself in buying stuff....especially now that lots of festivities are coming faster as the days pass..

holler back..

stuff lately..

hey...

the meeting of the parents turned out fine....nothing was revealed except for the stupid I.Q. test results...i still can't believe the result i got....and no,it wasn't below average or anything less than that..

anyway...we finally have movie tickets for Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire on Saturday!!!i can't wait to see it...

i saw Destiny's child's "#1's" on Musicone today but it wasn't the dvd edition and when i tried to listen to it on the listening device thingy,the device was broken so i wasn't able to listen to it...

my parents bought a charger and rechargeable batteries today....finally,i won't have to buy batteries daily anymore....hehe...

we had our practice for the Carolfest today...but of course,it's obvious that we still need further practice to achieve a much higher quality of performance..

oh,i also saw the album of Madonna in Musicone but the cover was so ugly.....i mean.....at least for me anyway...she had her back turned and she was like protruding her private area.......then the back just shows her feet on pink high heels....

we have a quiz on physics tomorrow!!!waaaahhhhh.....i need to study!!!!

there's also a new lesson in math but i wasn't giving my full attention since i was working on my research on the Greek gods and goddesses.....

speaking of gods and goddesses,we were finally grouped for the play presentation and our story is the judgment of Paris and Trojan war...

economics was still a bore since the teacher keeps on talking about investing money and growing it and stuff like those and during those times,i don't really listen so i don't understand the lesson well..

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stuff lately..

hey...

the meeting of the parents turned out fine....nothing was revealed except for the stupid I.Q. test results...i still can't believe the result i got....and no,it wasn't below average or anything less than that..

anyway...we finally have movie tickets for Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire on Saturday!!!i can't wait to see it...

i saw Destiny's child's "#1's" on Musicone today but it wasn't the dvd edition and when i tried to listen to it on the listening device thingy,the device was broken so i wasn't able to listen to it...

my parents bought a charger and rechargeable batteries today....finally,i won't have to buy batteries daily anymore....hehe...

we had our practice for the Carolfest today...but of course,it's obvious that we still need further practice to achieve a much higher quality of performance..

oh,i also saw the album of Madonna in Musicone but the cover was so ugly.....i mean.....at least for me anyway...she had her back turned and she was like protruding her private area.......then the back just shows her feet on pink high heels....

we have a quiz on physics tomorrow!!!waaaahhhhh.....i need to study!!!!

there's also a new lesson in math but i wasn't giving my full attention since i was working on my research on the Greek gods and goddesses.....

speaking of gods and goddesses,we were finally grouped for the play presentation and our story is the judgment of Paris and Trojan war...

economics was still a bore since the teacher keeps on talking about investing money and growing it and stuff like those and during those times,i don't really listen so i don't understand the lesson well..

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moments of truth

i am so scared to my bones right now...i suppose my dad is sitting now at the bosco hall together with the other parents talking about me....waaaahhhh...im so nervous of what they're going to say about me...i hope my life won't be ruined yet....

anyway,let's talk about other stuff to forget about it temporarily..Mark finally burned the cds i asked him to burn and so far,it works...and the cd is so cool too...i mean the back of the cd is blue instead of the usual silver.....i know that there are other more colors of the cd but since i don't really use cds before,i only fantasize about the colors of the cds today...hehe...

i saw Gwen Stefani's video,"Luxurious",last night and there's a scene in the video where she reminds me of Pink for some reason....but i don't really like the song as usual and i can't even remember the beat/tune of it..

i am so mad at myself cause i still haven't seen the full video of Pussycat Dolls' video,"Stickwitu",....all my friends have seen it.....i am so jealous....hehe...

some radio station said that Mariah's video for "Don't forget about Us" has been stopped by the government of some country from showing it on local tv...i forgot what country it is but i assume that it must be really naughty for it to be banned...i wonder if it's Taiwan?????since they're also responsible for the banning of Christina Aguilera's "Dirrty" when it was still showing back in the days...im sure it was an Asian country though...

Pau and Nicolo are finally gonna buy tickets for the Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire movie.....although im just gonna give them my money cause i can't buy it with them personally.......i can't wait to watch the movie!!

and now,what happened today at school:

we just learned something about the different banks in the Philippines in our Economics class although i wasn't really listening since i was copying something for our physics...hehe...

then in Filipino period,we just wrote a composition about the influences in our lives so the whole period was just total boredom....

we had a quiz in math and i am so mad at myself for being so stupid....i mean i was so good at our lesson during our previous meeting then suddenly i forgot all about just when i received the paper!!!so i got pretty messed up..

we answered some excercises in Physics and it was also boring...

our English teacher was absent so the defense did not push through and our teacher in the first year substituted for her so we just did nothing but answered our skillbuilders....

CADD was not really bad today.....cause the lights on my file finally worked although not completely but it still worked.....then i got to animate it so now im rendering it which takes around a whole lot of hours......i think mine was 5....although it seemed strange cause the others were like only something for 1 hour...and i think mine is the longest...which means im not gonna do much next meeting.....hopefully...

our guidance councilor told me that the test permit for csb will be given on thursday and i just hope that it won't coincide with the activity of the fourth years with the disabled so i won't have hard time to deal with both at the same time...

that's all...i hope everything's gonna be alright when my dad comes home...

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i might graduate after all..

i guess there's a chance for me to graduate after all...i got to talk with my parents in the states via landline and told them all about it....i just hope my dad doesn't forget....and i hope the meeting is strictly about academics not too personal for my parents to know more about me...

anyway,i didn't do anything much this weekend....i only though of how i could earn enough money this week and i just read a lot on the pocketbok im currently reading..

i saw a little bit of "Shattered Glass" starring Hayden Christensen in a local cable channel and i didn't expect it to be shown yet since it was shown like just late last year or at least the middle...oh well....time flies so fast....i also saw Hellboy on HBO..im looking forward in watching Harry Potter 4 on Saturday i just hope i don't run out of tickets....im also looking forward in buying a new cd by this week.....speaking of cds,i asked my mom to buy me the American idol season 3 cd since my dad didn't buy it for me the last time...i hope she buys it this time..

i want to hear Lindsay Lohan's new single!!!im looking forward to even see the cover since i had no knowledge that she has a new album...i just found it out when i saw the news article that the release date of the sophomore album was pushed back in December.....so i was really surprised....i was also surprised to read that Ashanti will be releasing a new album!!i mean she just released one track from Concrete rose(i think) and now she is gonna release another one?well,at least i found out that it was a remix album.....but then there are three new songs and the song lineup is only 10 tracks so there are only 7 remixed songs?some songs weren't even released as a video(i think)...bad career move...remixing songs is the path also taken by none other than Britney Spears!!she's gonna release a remix album and she did it without the knowledge of the people...tsk tsk tsk...i also feel sorry that Jojo will follow the footsteps of Britney...i mean in her first movie,"RV",she will do something like what Britney did in Crossroads....sing an old song like an amateur singer...or something like that...it's on mtv.com.....so just read it there...

well,Jenny got evicted from PBB....she deserved it...i mean she already got out from the house and she already know how to act to get the fans' sympathy....it just didn't worked cause her moves are already fixed as if she was a robot...besides,it's like she's nonexistent when she's not in the house....she doesn't give excitement inside the house....and it's a good thing thatr she got eliminated cause i've been voting for Say and if i didn't vote for Say,she might stay in the house and Say might as well be evicted...i just hope Say be included in the top 4 together with Nene,Jason and Uma....

well,nothing else to say...

holler back..

im not gonna graduate!!!

damn it...i am so pissed right now...i might not graduate just because of a simple meeting of parents with school authorities regarding some stupid school stuff..ahhhh....shit...i don't know what to do...i haven't informed my parents yet since they're on another country right now and they won't be back til tuesday!!!but the meeting is on monday so no one would be able to come..

we also had this orientation about the disabled...some speakers introduced us some matters regarding autism,retardation,talking with the deaf/blind...etc...but i really don't like it...i've been embarassed in front of the whole student body and i don't want to talk about it...i don't even want to show my face anymore in shame...waahhh....but the bad part of it was that we're gonna have a day to spent with them and that day might collide with my test date in CSB in case my test there will be there dec. 4....i just hope i could take the test even if i might not be able to do the said activity....i mean the activity is all about volunteerism but how can you call it volunteerism if you are forced...

then an issue that wasn't supposed to be an issue in the first place got tackled and it somehow affected the academics which shouldn't be....you see,two of my classmates are not really friends right now and one of them is in one of my peer group and the other is the president..anyway,the class president has accused us(my peer group) that we are being influenced by our friend by not allowing us to participate or give suggestions everytime an activity is required to gather suggestions from the class..but it clearly isn't true because we don't influence each other and it would be somehow childish if we even did that i mean that's not really a proper attitude to influence others just because of personal reasons that inly two are involved and the others are just plain innocent..so i guess the misunderstanding just got deeper i guess...

oh well...at least something fortunate happened......you see,we have this Carolfest in our school so in our music class,we discussed the details...our meeting today,however,spent it on classifying our voices,"tenor 1,tenor 2,bass 1,bass 2",tenor 1 is the highest level and bass 1 i suppose is the opposite...the song we had to sing for the classification was entitled "Christmas in our hearts",it was a nice song..anyway,i really thought that i would be classified in Bass 2....so after our(me,jessie,marcel and paolo) presentation,our teacher told us that we had BEAUTIFUL voices and it was a shame that we didn't join the Boschorale!!!!i am so flattered!!becdause of that we were classified in Tenor but me and jessie got into tenor 1 while pao and Marcel went to tenor 2 just so we could be divided...i am so honored...then when we were asked to sit as a group according to our classifications,i found out that there were only 5 of us(me,Brian,Jessie,Perry and Jk) who went to Tenor 1!!!!that makes me think that i have a nice voice and it keeps me motivated to develop my voice......although i do have to do my best to be my humble..

so that's it.....i just have to pray for a miracle that my parents or at least one of them would suddenly come back here and go to the meeting so i can graduate....

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im feelin' bad today and i don't know why...

school wasn't that bad today....but when i got home,it feels like a huge problem has gotten over me...a lot of things have been going on my head...it seems that i can't handle the pressure that the school is requiring us...like in shop,i our teacher said that we're gonna make a model.....but i am so damn irritated by model making...i can't even make a damn good model...then we also have our plates...which i find hard to do since we're dealing with perspective drawing...our teacher just keeps on telling us that it's gonna be beneficial to the college course for architecture and stuff but i am not taking a technical course such as architecture and the like!!i know i am in industrial drafting shop and i am not that technically inclined so i might have made a bad decision to study in the school...but anyway,that's not my point..im not sure if im going to be able to pass this subject anymore..id life..and another example,in english,we are going to study greek mythology this quarter and im really interested in learning it....but then all my friends know it already but don't think that im jealous of them or something...i already wanted to read stuff about those for a long time i just haven't got the time..and now i feel that if i start to learn about it,i might not have the capacity to remember every terminologies...so i might be stupid in the presence of everybody...then also physics,i already failed in the first quarter and now i think that im gonna fail the second quarter again.....and with the lessons in the quarter, i might fail again!!!i know it's early to jump into conclusions but this first lesson is just too hard..i'll have to get my ass worked out harder if i want to make a miracle and pass the freakin' subject..pe is another one...i know softball is a hard sport to play and it makes a person sweat especially under the scorching sun..i already failed the first quarter but passed the second but i don't want to fail again..another thing that's bothering my mind is my discman...music is cool but i can't really listen to it since it eats a lot of energy from batteries so i only get to hear it in my room where i dont have to use batteries...i want to buy rechargeable batteries but i heard that it's expensive so i have to make my parents buy it for me but it might take them a while before they buy it for me....i would buy it on my own but i already have a problem on being broke..which reminds me of the two activities in the school,Bandage and the High school dance,the bandage is ok and the only problem is the transportation but for the high school dance,not only do i have to worry about the transportation but also my attire!!i have to buy a new clothing for the event and i am so broke!!!i don't want to miss this dance since it's one of those moments where i get to enjoy myself as a teenager with my friends and where i can shake off my booty..haha..i might not even have something to buy gifts for my friends and i don't want that to happen since it's the last year for us already..then college is also bothering me...i have been thinking what would happen if i get rejected in all schools i applied in....everyone's gonna be so mad at me including myself..then one last thing...i fell that some of my classmates are like getting farther and farther as time goes by if you know at i mean...it's like they're suddenly getting...i don't know how to say it...but i don't really feel comfortable with them anymore like i used to be...it's like everything i do is bad in their eyes so i just do my best to stay invisible and just try to befriend those others who i don't really got to bond well..

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defense is over!!

yeah..our defense is finally over in english...but of course,we encountered lots of difficulties....we couldn't answer one of the teacher's question because i forgot the answers in one of the questions from the survey so i really had hard time to answer it...but so much for it...we presented it with our best somehow..

we had a new lesson in math about dividing polynomials although it does confuse me a little...

then we selected officers for the Economics entrepreneurship thingy..

we had this test in our sodality club as a review for the advancement test thingy and i didn't really know a lot..

our new sport for the quarter is softball and i didn't participate today cause i wanna see what's gonna happen.....then the football field was so hot.....im not sure if i'll want to play under the hot sun..

then our shop teacher was absent so sir sun had to substitute.....and i can't believe that i finished a plate in two meetings!!!haha..

well...im tired of typing already..

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