I seriously need some motivation for going to school.Everyone around me seems to be looking forward to school(with the huge exception of my siblings as usual).The only reasons I can grasp in my mind for going to school are my allowance,Chino Lui-Pio and of course,my FRIENDS!!

Not that I don't really want to go to school,but it's just maybe the process of learning that is keeping me from being interested in school.First,the professors who make our life miserable by giving us loads of work,giving us no time for relaxation and leisure.It feels bad to see these people everyday of the week.Second,my class schedule which is so tight for six consecutive days.Well,if you count my one subject for thursday and my cwts on saturday,that is.But anyway,my classes end up so late!!!I can't believe I have another 5pm class.No time to go for gimmick or at least stay longer at school or just simple time to reflect and reminisce.I don't mind having a 7am class cause I'm used to it by now but I really hate late classes.Third,Commuting!I hate it that I have to commute,but I guess it would be better that way than to be picked up by a family member.But the public transportation here in the country are just sooo stressful.I already look bad by the time I arrived at DLSU because of all the hassle of riding different public transpos.Worst of all,the ride itself in the transpo is bad.I can't imagine having my hips squished by all the passengers in the jeepney trying to fit in and in the LRT,they seriously need to add more trains and more aircons.And I hate our tricycle system here in our village.It really takes the patience out of you when you wait for another passenger that won't ride the special cause most people have the special trip and I don't want to pay such a high rate for a short ride.So I have to wait in the blistering heat of the sun everytime on the way home just waiting for enough passengers in the tricycle.

...I could probably list more,but I'll just stop ranting for now..

there are things that I seriously need to do for this year.Some of these things are:
1.As I have clearly stated in my previous blog entry,I need to get a hair color.I really want to do something good for myself which I haven't done lately.Me and Ella was actually talking about this yesterday and we agreed that we will color our hair once we save enough money.I seriously can't wait to see my own makeover.:))
2.Learn how to commute going to Mall of Asia.Haha.Since I already know how to commute going to Glorietta,I really want to learn how to go to MOA.I think Im the only one in my block who doesn't know how to go to MOA.Well,my friend actually told me how to go there but my problem is the way home.If there are only public transpos in MOA tht will take me near home.I really want to explore more of MOA.Hehe.
3.Have high grades.Even if I'm not on the dean's list,having a higher grade than my second sem seems good to me. I think I did quite good in the first semester that I got so complacent and got too confident in myself during the second sem. Because of it,my grades became lower and of course,I became more of a crammer than before.
4.Stop being too worried.My friends can testify to this.Whenever I am anxious about something,I really freak out that I start to annoy other people and at the same time,make a fool out of myself.Believe me,I tend to be annoying when I'm worried.Like when I'm failing.Haha.It's just my habit to worry so much on the details which is why I should be more optimistic.
5.Try to take things step by step at a time. I usually think about my future which makes me forget that I'm still living in the present.I'm really conscious of what's going to happen in the future that I really make it a point to plan way ahead even if it's not necessary.Another consequence that I learned from thinking too much of the future is that I get to spend too little time with the people that surrounds me now and that I have little time to bond with them that I seriously regret.There's this weird thing that I do,since we are wearing civilian clothes for school,each of us just wears our good old shirt and jeans or just blouse or skirt and what-have-you.Most of the people I knew pick out their attire the same morning of the school day or at least the day/night before.In my case,I plan what I'm gonna wear at least a week or two before.It's like I already have a list of what shirts are supposed to be used for this day and the next and the next,although this is only in my mind of course.I really get freaked out when I realize that I don't have anymore clothes to wear and that I have to repeat.Although I think that I have enough clothes for one term wherein I don't have to repeat a shirt twice in a term.Haha.Thankfully,this fear of repeating clothes only applies to t-shirts and I don't mind wearing the same jeans for consecutive days.Although I really try to use different trousers for each day.
6.Discover what my real talent is.Haha.I wanna shine like a star.But I know that will happen only in my dreams.But seriously,everytime someone asks me what I can do,I don't know what to reply.But I really do want something that I can specialize in.Cause I know that everyone of us is gifted with talent from God.Hehe.I just hope I develop more confidence in myself.
7.I have to eat more!Haha.Despite my efforts to gain some more weight,my body quickly eliminates them before it gets distributed equally in my body.hehe.
8.Read more pocketbooks.I just miss reading pocketbooks.I don't know why I stopped reading them in college.

...and that was just a couple of them.Although I don't really want to call them my New Year's resolution cause I might break them.Especially the number one on the list.Haha.

Well.This is the last day of our Holiday vacation and less than 24 hours from now,I'll see familiar faces and some new faces,walk through the same corridors of DLSU and hopefully,try to get a different seat in the classroom.

I'm having mixed emotions right now.