7/20/13

It's time to let go.

Yesterday was the birthday of my officemate whom I have feelings for. We decided to surprise him by giving him a simple card with pictures and our messages and a muffin. It was supposed to be a cake but the store ran out of stock.

We were treated to lunch at the office as usual and it was the first time I looked forward to it because it wasn't pancit which was the usual food during birthdays and instead, it was spaghetti.

Fast forward to the evening, we decided to have a drinking session in Central Makati since it was near the place.

I can barely remember anything but I still remember those that mattered the most and that is witnessing him holding hands and cuddling up with another officemate, which I somehow knew that something was going on between them but I just turned on my blind side. I guess that tipped me off to start getting drunk more than I can handle and now I am red and itchy all over again. But more hurtful than my physical pain is the heartbreak which cannot be relieved easily. I should have never played with my emotions in the first place and now I'm easily broken.

I can't believe how selfish of me to take the cheerful spirit I had earlier in the day. I do hope I did not ruin it for him. Now it's time for me to step back and let him go.