Haven't blogged since Monday eh.Well,hell weel in school is coming next week for most students.I have to do our SEAFILM papers and also do my practicum report as well,and not to forget,my dreaded thesis.Hay...things just can't get better.

I've been able to buy dvds of the latest seasons of the shows I watch.I still haven't completed it but I'm almost there.Also,I was able to get some new cds from the cd sale in SM.So nice.

Katy Perry and Boys Like Girls will have a concert here in Manila on October.I really really really wanna watch.Two of my favorites in one show.This is gonna be awesome.I need to start saving money.

I don't know how to say how much I'm worried right now. There's only around one week left, and to some,it's a good thing, but to me, it's not.I need it to be just a little bit longer.It's all my fault.I slacked around in the first few weeks of the term and now I'm paying for it.I don't know how to explain this to veryone,especially my family.

Earlier today, I was on my way home when my grandma and my aunt saw me and offered a ride home. On our way, they were already talking about what job I'll have after graduation.They were having fun imagining which jobs I might get while I try to hide the fact that graduation might be farther than they think it will be.

I'm really afraid for my thesis.After seeing the schedule of the defense for those who will be defending, I just imagine if I'll ever be on that list too.It's not that I'm giving up, but knowing myself, I don't know if I can handle all the stress.I'm not good at time management in terms of school-related stuff.haha.

My mom's coming home tomorrow.I hope she got to buy a leather case for the iPod.I'm not expecting that she bought the shoes I wanted.She doesn't even remember how it looks like.

I was saving a particular amount of money for dvds of the tv series I watch.I was able to buy two earlier and planned to buy the others on separate days.When I was at SM,there was a cd sale, everything for P99 each!!!I couldn't help but buy at least two.Now my savings are cut short.Oh well.I still have some left.I do plan to buy more cds.I got to see good finds that I need to come back for.I was able to buy New Years Day and Relient K albums while I want to ome back for Mandy Moore,The Kooks and Bloc Party's albums which I also saw on the sale.

I guess I should sleep now.I have a freakin' headache and I don't know if I'm going to school tomorrow or not.Most likely yes though.

Earlier,the television was on and it was tuned into ETC. The final episode of Friday Night lights season 3(?) was being shown and I wasn't really tuned in. But Tyra's speech/college application letter kept me glued.Even though I watched it already,I still like to hear it again.I think it's one of my favorites actually.

Here's the letter:

Two years ago, I was afraid of wanting anything. I figured wanting would lead to trying, and trying would lead to failure. But now I find I can't stop wanting. I wanna fly somewhere in first class. I wanna travel to Europe on a business trip. I wanna get invited to the White House. I wanna learn about the world. I wanna surprise myself. I wanna be important. I wanna be the best person I can be. I wanna define myself instead of having others define me. I wanna win and have people be happy for me. I wanna lose and get over it. I wanna not be afraid of the unknown. I wanna grow up to be generous and big hearted, the way that people have been with me. I want an interesting and surprising life. It's not that I think I'm gonna get all these things. I just want the possibility of getting them. College represents this possibility. The possibility that things are gonna change. I can't wait.

This letter touches me. I wanted so many things in my life,especially before entering college.I thought that college was going to change me in a big way. But it turned out that I could not keep up and that change was just a mere false hope.I didn't really get what I wanted.I guess I got so overwhelmed by college that instead of it letting it make my life surprising,it just made mine hard for myself.

Truth is, I felt totally unprepared for college.I guess everyone is.But in my case,I never really thought ahead of what's going to happen to me in the future.I just went with the flow and I have no actual plans of the future and I'm really scared.I don't even know if my life is on track.You know how people say what they want to be when they were a child?Some would like to be a doctor,a police,a teacher,etc. until they grow up and they wanted to be something else like a magazine editor,some corporate manager and all those wonderful jobs?well,in my case,I don't really know what I wanted to be in the first place. I never thought of myself in some kind of attire and doing service for others.I like to help people but in some other and informal way. I don't see myself in a stable kind of occupation.

Lately,I've been thinking of traveling in different places around the world.I think I might even follow my parents' footsteps just so I could ride an airplane (Yes,I love flying!).I love my course,but now I'm not sure if I can handle it.Just trying to pour out the creative juices on my mind is already hard for me.I just wanna get out of college and get this over with.

College does represent possibilities.But I guess for me,it's what happens after college.

I am so screwed.I don't know what to do anymore.My mentor still doesn't like my story outline thingy for my thesis and I have no idea how I'll revise it.huhuhu

I'm forgetting to update this one.

So what have I been up to lately,well,I've been worrying very much about my practicum.I've already scheduled an interview with one of my resource persons.Well, my only resource person so far so I have to look for more.And I don't have much time on my hands.I'm scared to contact pone of the resource person my mentor has recommended me to.I've looked him up on the internet and he is quite intimidating.I can't mention his name cause he might see it if he googles himself.HAHAHAHA.

So I think I mentioned that I finished Nip/Tuck season 4.Yesterday,I bought season 5.I bought it in another store in harrison and it was actually cheaper.So I went back today and got myself OTH s06 and Supernatural s04.I'm trying to buy the latst seasons of the shows I watch.It's hard to pick especially since I don't get much allowance anymore.

Anyway,It's late already.I hope to post tomorrow.

So today wasn't really a good day.I watched the game earlier,which we lost against ADU:(

Before the game,I bought an upper box A ticket then before I went inside,I thought it was kinda early for me to go inside so I just stood outside the entrance,pretending to wait for someone. Suddenly,a couple who were alumni of DLSU asked me if I was going to buy a ticket,they offered a lower box ticket to me for free since I'm alone.I accepted and watched the game in that section.I totally wasted that 170 bucks:(

So i met up with my mom afterwards and she was with her friend.We had dinner at Mann Yann in Makati.

I'm trying to finish Nip/Tuck s4 right now.I hope to finish it by tonight.I need to work on my thesis for this weekend starting tomorrow so I could accomplish it by Sunday.I need to work on the story all over again.huhuhu.

These past few days have been pretty...normal,well it was pretty exciting.The big DLSU-ADMU game made the weekend alive.Me and my mom watched GI Joe yesterday and the movie was good,better than Transformers 2(for me). Today,I was in Glorietta and someone actually committed suicide!Well,I didn't really see the actual suicide but I was there.I was in the foodcourt when some people suddenly screamed and people started to flock in the glass windows.I got curious and even though I didn't see the body,something obviously happened. There were many police and too many people forming a crowd.I'm kinda glad I didn't see the actual incident.It must be traumatic for the people who saw how it exactly happened.

I have a dentist appointment tomorrow.I need to go to school afterward to see if I can have my consultation.I might watch the UAAP game on Thursday if I have nothing else to do.It's gonna be my first game to watch live this season if ever.Good thing it's gonna be in Araneta and not in Ultra which is so far.

I finally got my new iPod classic yesterday!My mom wasn't able to buy one in Sydney so we just boguht it here.I was lucky that the store where we bought the unit has the color that I want it to be, which is black.It was actually raining hard yesterday and even the previous days so I thought we couldn't go out.It was also the funeral of Cory Aquino so I know there will be traffic.But fortunately,the rain calmed down for a while and despite the huge number of people and cars parked in SLEX, Magallanes,Expressway,etc., we were able to go to Glorietta,although we had to take a different route just to get there.

We bought the iPod immediately then my mom proceeded to hr workout.I invited my mom to watch The Proposal and we did.What can I say,it was a great movie!Sandra Bullock is definitely one of my favorite actress.The theater was so full and I saw a long line waiting for the next showing!This is definitely a must-see movie.

I'v been downloading videos and movies the whole day.As well as some songs to be put on my nano since I'm giving it to my sister.Aww,now I feel sad about giving it away.It's been in good condition until now and now I'm sure it will be...well,overused.I still have separation anxity(just a little bit) and now I'm getting it again because of it.Hahaha.

Anyway,I was able to find this site where I was able to download movies for the ipod,but the selection is so few so I'm really trying to look for a site where I could download free mp4 movies(so that I don't have to convert them).

I'm really worried about school. Every second,I feel like giving up already.Good luck to me.

I do hop tomorrow will be a good day.:)

RIP Cory.She died yesterday.

I realized yesterday marks exactly one month since I saw them.Yes,I still have a bit of separation anxiety,but thanks to my iPod,the anxiety is slowly being overshadowed by my need for a new iPod,which I might get by Tuesday.Hopefully,my mom will get me one in Sydney since they are supposed to have a discount there.

Finished watching Nip/Tuck season 3 after a long time of not watching it.I'm now ready to watch season 4.Just need to get my copy.

My laptop's optical drive is starting to go crazy on me again since last night.I guess it needs to be repaired.

I've been downloading albums the entire day yesterday.Now,I'm trying to listen to most of them,so I know which songs will I put on my new iPod.I still have a long list to go through.I'm sure it will eat up the entire day.

I'm so hungry.I need to stock up on my food:(