Every week's getting tougher. I badly want to like the job but it's constantly giving me reasons not to as time passes by.
It's not just the workload but other external factors.
First, the office just moved to a new unit and there's no signs that they're going to install airconditioning! I don't want to act like a brat but it's really hard to concentrate on my work when I'm sweating like crazy. The office attire ain't so comfortable either. It's been more than a month since we moved and the only improvement is an addition of an electric fan that is not enough. What's worse is that summer is coming and the heat will be hotter than ever. Good luck to our skins.
Second, I've been arriving quite late for these past weeks, like 10 minutes late or so. I know it's mostly my fault but I've been trying my best to get to the office on time. My body has adjusted to waking up early already and I'm trying to leave the house at least two hours early but the insane traffic and lack of jeepneys/public transpo in our area is making things difficult. I just found out that the grace period is only 5 minutes and our salary is deducted the amount of an hour even if we arrive 9:06 and beyond which means I probably have accumulated at least two days worth of tardiness already to be deducted from my already low salary which will be spent on my transpo, dinner, etc. and I get to save nothing so I'm basically earning as much as I did when I was jobless but increasing my stress levels instead.
Third, I got used to following a system of knowing what to do but it seems like I think they're expecting so much from me and I'm not able to live up to their expectations. They didn't tell me that exactly but I feel like I'm being singled out during meetings and such. Now I'm all for improving how things work and all but I hope they're not expecting me to do things I can't do just yet.
I could probably rant some more but I don't want to sound like a broken record as if I haven't already.
As I said before, the people are still nice and I don't want to burn bridges. I'm just hoping to stay for at least a year and I hope I can at least achieve that.
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