5/2/13

I can’t believe it’s happening all over again.  Just when I’m about to reach my third monthsary in the company, I’ve been hit by another road bump. I could let the past take over again and quit now but I want to prove to myself that I can do better.

I don’t want to completely give away everything but there was a reshuffling among our clients and basically, all my clients were given to someone else and I received the most in terms of workload. Our maximum hours should be 160 hours per month and all my colleagues received more or less in that range while I get more than 230 hours per work!

They do acknowledge that I’m not superman so they gave me our two interns whom I can assign tasks but the thing is, they’re not so reliable and they also have other tasks to do and they’re leaving in less than a month. They also gave me one of my colleagues to share my tasks with but he’s been MIA lately and the word around is that he’s been lying low to apply to other companies so I might as well be on my own if he doesn’t show up.

I’m very intimidated by the pressure especially if they start decreasing their performance just because of my inability to perform well. I don’t want to get terminated but I don’t think I’ll last longer than I want to.

Aside from the buttload of tasks, there are also external factors that are  a cause of delay such as meetings (that seems to be happening everyday lately), my tardiness (though that is my fault I guess), the heat because of the lack of airconditioning which causes me to lose focus on my tasks and the most annoying one is the fluctuating internet connection. Just this morning, I couldn’t connect to the internet for at least an hour.

I don’t know what to do anymore. The new clients I’m handling have such technical and complex topics and I can’t imagine having to write about them every week.

We’re supposedly hiring but I doubt that will lighten the load since we have some incoming clients and we’re hiring around two people which is not enough to carry the excess load we have.

I hope my body is up for it. I haven’t really told anyone about my back problems which could further escalate to something worse when this overload of work continues.