7/30/13

Happy birthday to my younger sister! She turns 17 today. She had a bunch of friends come over our house today so I'm glad she's happy even if I didn't get to celebrate it with her.

Work has been very stressful this week and it's only Tuesday!I'm worried about the meeting for tomorrow!The performance of my clients have been so terrible. I'm afraid I'll be kicked out of the company or be sanctioned at least since I haven't been able to solve my clients' problem.

7/29/13

I’ve been having some sort of adjustment period in the gym again. My schedule has been fluctuating for the past month. It’s either I miss one gym day or I do short gym sessions due to leaving late from the office from finishing all my tasks.

I can’t believe I’m saying this but I’m getting a bit bored in working out. But it’s probably just the laziness speaking. I know it’s supposed to happen especially when you’re a newbie in the gym and right now, I feel like one. It’s a good thing I can still lift the normal weight I’ve been doing instead of regressing to lighter ones.

On a sadder note, the EK trip that I’m looking forward to is postponed. It’s just not a good day for most of us. The good thing is that it has been moved to next Saturday. Though I’m not sure if that’s even gonna happen but I really look forward to it after all the delays.  It has to happen on that day because my August weekends are quite full with Bazooka Rocks 2 and the new Percy Jackson movie coming up.

7/28/13

July is finally ending this week. It's going to be my 6 month in the company this August and it's going to be my longest job I've had if ever. I'm proud of it but at the same time, I am really stressed out. I wanted to love my job and be good at it but it seems like I have become stagnant. The industry is very interesting and I'm sure I will definitely learn something once I get to study it further.

However, due to the amount of responsibilities and clients I am handling, I just can't seem to find the time to enhance my craft.

The only thing that motivates me to stay is the salary, the entitlement of being employed, and more importantly, my fellow SEO specialists. I know they are also struggling to balance their work but I'm not sure if the management is sensitive enough to care about our concerns, or sufferings, I should say.

I'm really praying that our EK trip will push through. I need something good to look forward to.

7/27/13

Today was supposed to be just a regular gym day but I unexpectedly did more than just go to the gym. I had a little bit of a shopping spree. I got myself a CD which I planned to do so but I also got myself a small backpack and a shirt from Human. To be fair, the shirt was on sale and the bag was cheap and small which was something I need for the office. It has also been a while since I got to splurge on some money. But I still feel guilty since we have a planned trip to EK next week and I have a concert to go to this August and I'm trying to save money for a ticket.I don't want to get back to my old self that has been spending a lot of dispensable things but I believe I have a firm hold of my money this time. I just need to find time to deposit some of them in the bank!

7/26/13

After such a terrible day at the office, I was able to end the day with a simple but fun dinner with my officemates. Though we have been doing it a lot, I always appreciate it. I've never had this much of these experiences before and I don't even mind about spending a lot of money. Speaking of which, we received a quarterly bonus because we hit some good sales this year and the boss gave us our profit share. That is good but that also means more pressure to get more clients. The only good thing is that the management acknowledges the need for more people/staff to carry the insane workload.

7/25/13

I don't know what to think of myself right now, it's so embarrassing. I've never been such an emotional wreck since high school.

It's that feeling where I'm throwing every single part of me and that person just keeps on ignoring every thing you do and I don't even know if the person intentionally does it or just completely clueless. I end up exhausted and looking like a loser either way.

I did try to back off this week but I can't. I end up giving so much effort into laying low in the background but people around me are quick to notice me change and I want to keep it as subtle as possible.

The worst thing is the person is sending me mixed signals. Sometimes, we're good while sometimes it feels like there's a problem between us.

I need to get my act together. Even our supposedly planned trip to EK seems to be in danger of being cancelled. Too bad since I am looking forward to it.

7/23/13

As I mentioned in my previous blog post, I have to create a new blog for work. Not necessarily about my work but it's something for work. I decided that I'll use Blogger since this is where I am used to.

As for its theme, I decided that it will be about music, movies and TV shows and maybe even books. Basically what I have been posting here. So where does that leave this one, well this one will still be used but mostly as a recap of things that happened, my daily rants on work or anything that pisses me off, my nonexistent love life and everything else in random categories.

Since we're on it, I am just ranting on how I was given two new clients again today!I am about to go crazy but I got to stay strong. One of my closest friend in the office expressed to me a feeling of surrender earlier today and I tried to lift up his spirits just so he won't feel the need to leave. That would be a big waste if I can't apply my own motivational words to myself.

7/22/13

It looks like I have overreacted the other day as I had the chance of talking to the person I'm referring to. I clarified the issue and despite getting an answer that is not really the one I'm expecting, I feel like there is really something going on.

7/21/13

Last week, we were instructed by our big boss to have our own personal blogs to be updated regularly. It can be about any topic we want.

It can also be an old blog such as this one but for obvious reasons, I can't let them know about this one. 

I'm still deciding where to start a blog. Most likely, it will still be here in Blogger.

I'm still going to update this regularly as this is still my personal blog. I don't know the direction I'm going to take with the new blog but I can't see it any much different than this one. It's still going to be about music,movies and everything else. However, it probably won't be as personal as this one. You won't see me ranting on my love life, career and other nitpicky issues. But that doesn't mean the blog is going to be so indifferent. I'll still try to inject a bit of my personality on it.

Another week is gonna start tomorrow and it's going to be a painful one. I just hope I can accomplish all my tasks without getting my emotions in the way.

7/20/13

It's time to let go.

Yesterday was the birthday of my officemate whom I have feelings for. We decided to surprise him by giving him a simple card with pictures and our messages and a muffin. It was supposed to be a cake but the store ran out of stock.

We were treated to lunch at the office as usual and it was the first time I looked forward to it because it wasn't pancit which was the usual food during birthdays and instead, it was spaghetti.

Fast forward to the evening, we decided to have a drinking session in Central Makati since it was near the place.

I can barely remember anything but I still remember those that mattered the most and that is witnessing him holding hands and cuddling up with another officemate, which I somehow knew that something was going on between them but I just turned on my blind side. I guess that tipped me off to start getting drunk more than I can handle and now I am red and itchy all over again. But more hurtful than my physical pain is the heartbreak which cannot be relieved easily. I should have never played with my emotions in the first place and now I'm easily broken.

I can't believe how selfish of me to take the cheerful spirit I had earlier in the day. I do hope I did not ruin it for him. Now it's time for me to step back and let him go.

7/16/13 - J.A.C.K.

J.A.C.K. is Forever The Sickest Kids' latest album released last month. It followed their self-titled album released a few years ago, though this is also another self-titled album as the letters are the acronym of the first letters of the band members' names.

It has 11 tracks plus a bonus track. They originally had more than 40 songs recorded as per the lead singer's statement but they had to select the best ones.

The album starts with the first single, Chin Up Kid, which is a fast and upbeat song dedicated to children who were bullied or got heartbroken by their young crush.

The album follows with several upbeat tracks and only 1 toned down song near the end. What I love about the album is that despite being upbeat for the most part, they manage to somehow change it up a little. They even used some sort of choir in the background in Ritalin (Born in the USA).

I admit that the album was a grower in my case but by the 3rd spin, I was already jamming and bopping my head to every song. It's full of energy and life that won;t fail to keep your head spinning.

While the record isn't so groundbreaking, this is becoming my favorite album from them.

Top tracks: Kick It, Don't Let Me Go, Cross My Heart

7/14/13

On the evening of July 13, 2013, Cory Monteith was found dead in his hotel room in Vancouver and apparently, due to drug overdose. Many initially thought it was a rumor but it was proven to be true by the police. He was 31 yrs. old. He didn't hide his drug problem and even seeked help a couple of times including the recent one just last March this year.

It's sad to see another young talent go. He was one of the best characters on Glee and I don't know how they'll move on from this. It;s more alarming that he was going to be married to his co-star/fiance Lea Michele in2 weeks time and now she'll have to prepare for a funeral.

Goodbye Cory. You will be missed. RIP.

7/13/13

So this day was not so nice. I watched college basketball which we lost. I did expect it though and I just came there to experience what it was like to be in the venue since it was my first time to watch in the MOA Arena. The place was huge but I think it doesn't have as many seats as the Araneta Coliseum due to the huge spacing which is both a good and bad thing.

The other day, I found out there was a cd sale at one of the music stores here so I went and ot myself some cds. Can't believe how fast my collection is growing this year.

My weekend has been unfriendly so far. I need some rest tomorrow.

7/11/13

It's quite a slow day today. Our internet in the office has been insanely slow and today, there was no internet throughout the whole afternoon. Fortunately,  I was able to write two articles even without in depth research. I expect it to have a lot of revisions but at least I have a foundation.

There was a fire in the slums near our office earlier. I was worried since it might reach our building but thankfully, it didn't and the surroundings seemed to run normally despite the big black smoke reaching into the sky.

Due to the absence of the net, we were able to leave the office early and have dinner together. We decided to eat in Greenwich again and this time, there were more of us so it was nice to have some time to de-stress even for just a little while. Tomorrow's gonna be a busy day to catch up on all the missed work.

My fellow colleagues are actually planing to have another getaway with the team, without the bosses to avoid awkwardness, and I am looking forward for that to push through.

7/10/13

I guess I've been overreacting lately and there really is no problem between me and my worker but the thing is I think my officemate is interested with someone else. Now my question is what do you do when you like someone who will never like you back?

7/7/13 - Magnetic

Admittedly, I don't consider myself a big fan of The Goo Goo Dolls but I have respect for them. Iris is one of the best songs in history and I have some of their previous albums. They have been in the industry for so long which is why it was nice to hear they are coming up with a new album this year called Magnetic. I don't expect much from it aside from a smooth and casual listening of alternative music but this album was a sweet surprise.

Despite their seniority, not necessarily enough to call them grandfathers but still, veterans if I should say, their new music seems to fit more with the younger crowd.

Starting off this album is their first single, Rebel Beat which was a good jumpstart to the album as its positive vibe is a perfect album opener and remind everyone that they still imbibe a youthful charm.

They didn't stop the energy there as songs like When The World Breaks Your Heart, Come To Me and Caught In The Storm and many more will keep you engaged with its lively rhythm all throughout the album. Of course, there are still songs with a slower tempo to keep you in pace with the album such as BulletproofAngel and a midtempo, Happiest of Days.

My only problem with the album is that most of them sound the same and they are quite forgettable in the long run. But if you are looking for a sweet delight to listen to in the middle of summer, go ahead and listen to this album.

Top tracks: Rebel Beat, Come To Me, Bringing On The Light

7/6/13

It's officially 5 months since I started working. Just one more month and I'm going to be evaluated for regularization and once I get pass that, this will be officially the longest job I've held on to so far.

I'm proud if that happens. I celebrated it last night by having dinner with some of my officemates at KFC. No fancy celebration this time as it was nothing special and most of us are running short of cash. It feels so nice that we're doing this often even if it means I have to tweak my gym schedule and move it to Saturdays.

7/4/13

Just when I thought I'm feeling comfortable with my job, it get worse. Today, the company made a few changes again to the workflow and it is going to affect me the most as it will delay the process and I have no spare time. I'll probably be kicked out due to my inability to finish all tasks but I can see it coming and the shock factor is dwindling down. I should be immune to these feelings by now with all the punches thrown at me but I can't help but feel sacred.

I'm worried my officemates are feeling the same and I don't want to leave them which makes me want to stay. I just feel so tired. I have also been leaving the house very early as the shuttle service seem to be departing early so I had to adjust. I now arrive at the office very early, sometimes even an hour early. Now that's a personal achievement.

7/2/13

It's finally July!I can't believe the year is halfway through and most importantly, I am so proud that I am still employed.

Speaking of work, I'm really starting to feel the heavy load of my work as I have no more people to help me do my tasks. But I am just focusing on the positive things.

I've been trying to lay low this past few days from my colleagues and so far, I think it's doing pretty well. I even got to have a short serious talk with my officemate about his love life which is something that I rarely do. I'm no expert in love but having that talk showed a glimpse of my weak side and I like to feel vulnerable sometimes.

Sometimes, I feel like I hold back too much but I'm so fearful that I will only get myself into trouble. I really want to change that.