im feelin' bad today and i don't know why...

school wasn't that bad today....but when i got home,it feels like a huge problem has gotten over me...a lot of things have been going on my head...it seems that i can't handle the pressure that the school is requiring us...like in shop,i our teacher said that we're gonna make a model.....but i am so damn irritated by model making...i can't even make a damn good model...then we also have our plates...which i find hard to do since we're dealing with perspective drawing...our teacher just keeps on telling us that it's gonna be beneficial to the college course for architecture and stuff but i am not taking a technical course such as architecture and the like!!i know i am in industrial drafting shop and i am not that technically inclined so i might have made a bad decision to study in the school...but anyway,that's not my point..im not sure if im going to be able to pass this subject anymore..id life..and another example,in english,we are going to study greek mythology this quarter and im really interested in learning it....but then all my friends know it already but don't think that im jealous of them or something...i already wanted to read stuff about those for a long time i just haven't got the time..and now i feel that if i start to learn about it,i might not have the capacity to remember every terminologies...so i might be stupid in the presence of everybody...then also physics,i already failed in the first quarter and now i think that im gonna fail the second quarter again.....and with the lessons in the quarter, i might fail again!!!i know it's early to jump into conclusions but this first lesson is just too hard..i'll have to get my ass worked out harder if i want to make a miracle and pass the freakin' subject..pe is another one...i know softball is a hard sport to play and it makes a person sweat especially under the scorching sun..i already failed the first quarter but passed the second but i don't want to fail again..another thing that's bothering my mind is my discman...music is cool but i can't really listen to it since it eats a lot of energy from batteries so i only get to hear it in my room where i dont have to use batteries...i want to buy rechargeable batteries but i heard that it's expensive so i have to make my parents buy it for me but it might take them a while before they buy it for me....i would buy it on my own but i already have a problem on being broke..which reminds me of the two activities in the school,Bandage and the High school dance,the bandage is ok and the only problem is the transportation but for the high school dance,not only do i have to worry about the transportation but also my attire!!i have to buy a new clothing for the event and i am so broke!!!i don't want to miss this dance since it's one of those moments where i get to enjoy myself as a teenager with my friends and where i can shake off my booty..haha..i might not even have something to buy gifts for my friends and i don't want that to happen since it's the last year for us already..then college is also bothering me...i have been thinking what would happen if i get rejected in all schools i applied in....everyone's gonna be so mad at me including myself..then one last thing...i fell that some of my classmates are like getting farther and farther as time goes by if you know at i mean...it's like they're suddenly getting...i don't know how to say it...but i don't really feel comfortable with them anymore like i used to be...it's like everything i do is bad in their eyes so i just do my best to stay invisible and just try to befriend those others who i don't really got to bond well..

holler back..