My officemate has been telling me his plans to go abroad a few months ago. Back then, those were just plans and I didn't think I would be so affected since we don't know each other so much yet and he didn't have his requirements yet.
As time passed by, we got closer and I consider him now as one of my closest friend and maybe even more than that even though that part seems to be non-mutual. But anyway, recently, he told me that he already has his passport already and he cannot wait to go. He just needs to fix certain documents and requirements and he's ready to go.
He has literally been talking to me about it privately through chat whether on skype, FB or anywhere. I am the only person who knows about it and I don't plan on breaking his trust and our friendship which I value very much.
He has been very aggressive about it and telling me how excited he is. I try to reciprocate by giving him my support but deep inside I am torn. I want him to be happy but I don't want to see him leave yet. He is actually one of the reason s why i am actually staying at work. If not for him, I would have probably been kicked out or have resigned months ago since the company seems to find ways to not have me on board. I can't help it though as he seems to be the only one whom I know I can depend on. It is also why I try to be there for him the same way he has been supporting me.
I just need to put out a brave face and pretend that I support his decisions to leave.
I'm being selfish once again and I can't control it. He has valid reasons to leave, aside from financial problems, he is also getting too much stress from work and he is not getting compensated enough to satisfy his needs. He is the breadwinner of his family and he has to fulfill his duties and who am I to stop him from doing that.
It's too late to share to him my feelings but I''ll be glad to be just a part of his life and if this is what will make him happy, then I'll have to be contented with it.
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