It feels good to have a day-off on a Tuesday while having another one on another day. I guess our boss decided to give us two days off for this month because we are so many or maybe it's just until this week.

My sleeping habit is getting weirder and weirder everyday. I used to complain that I do not get much sleep because I don't have time, and now that I have time, I always wake up way early and I can't go back to enjoy dreamland. It sucks, I have been sleeping almost the entire stay at the office last night because of it and I'm back with the afternoon shift tomorrow which means I have no more time again to sleep for more than 7 hours.

I have been downloading some cartoon songs yesterday. I don't know why but it made me miss my childhood. It also made me realize that Disney hasn't been putting out good songs to sing along to this recent,or for quite a lot of years already. The last decent song they prolly put out are the ones from Enchanted. But it's not as epic as Can You Feel the Love Tonight or A Whole New World,etc. I would root this problem to their aim of being mature. I noticed they have been targeting older audiences now. Not exactly old, but teenagers. Camp Rock, HSM, etc. with the exception of Toy Story 3 (which is probably one of the few good ones they've made in the past decade that was good), those movies are not exactly too shallow for very young kids and it's sex appeal is now sensationalized with all the teen pairings and loveteams and the languages. Maybe they were trying to follow the audience they had during the earlier years but they forget to make new ones to continue the epicness of the previous animated films.

Now, I'm gonna go and look for more:)

I don't think I need to further discuss what happened in the Philippines a few days ago. If you don't know, there was a hostage taking last Monday with a former policeman taking tourists from Hong Kong as hostages in a bus. They were on their way back to their homeland but an unfortunate thing happened. I first read about the news on Yahoo's front page during the morning while I was at the office. I thought it was over at the time it was posted so I didn't make a big deal out of it. Later that day, I got home early and slept. I woke up and the news were showing the hostage crisis. I didn't expect it to turn out that way. A lot of people were killed and our policemen were not doing a great job at the whole situation. When I turned on the tv, the hostage taker was already killed but they were still taking the hostages out of the bus, some were alive while some did not make it alive. This is such a big blow to our country. Just when everybody thought the new administration would mean the start of a new beginning, it just went down furthermore. Now, people in Hong Kong are going wild and they even blacklisted the country and imposed a travel ban. This is bad for tourism. Everybody will now be afraid to go in our country and stereotyping and violence might be seen in the future. Let's pray that we get through this in the future.

The following day, it was another big day as Miss Universe 2010 was held in Mandalay Bay in Las Vegas. Fortunately, to the delight of Filipinos, our candidate, Ms. Venus Raj, reached all the way to the top 5 and also the only Asian in the top 15. I thought we had a good chance until she committed a major, major blunder in the question & answer portion. But we should be happy that she still gave us something to be proud of.

This week is going fast:) Last Monday, I was given the 5AM to 1PM slot to work, a shift I was afraid of because I didn't know how to go to the office at that time, fortunately, there were public transportation and got to the office safe even though I was a bit late. I sooner found out that we are getting two days off and I got my first one yesterday. I wished it was on another day but I'll just be happy I got one, especially since I've developed a fever and as I'm typing this, my head is killing me with a headache.:(

I really need to learn how to drive soon especially if my work will give me odd working hours.

Just yesterday at work, I found out that for tomorrow, I have to work at 5AM to 1PM. How am I supposed to go to work at that time? Streets are dark and empty, save from some private vehicles and probably taxis, which I can't afford to take especially if I will be assigned to that shift next month. This reinforces my resignation. I don't know if it's God's way of telling me to leave sooner but I do plan to keep the job until October and August is barely ending. I have yet to tell my mom about my planned resignation but I doubt it's going to be a problem to them, seeing that they want me to get another job, anything that offers better benefits and of course, a higher pay.

What's harder is getting out of my village. Since before I get to the jeepney terminal, I have to past through some sort of forest-like path and also a long street of slums which is not safe. It's not like I know any self-defense nor do I have any material to protect me from crooks. To make it worse, I haven't got any amount of decent sleep for the past few days so I don't know how I'm going to wake up early. I plan to go late for work in case our manager is testing me to see how I'll fare with that call time in case our shifts are rotated by next month. Hopefully, I won't be assigned to that shift or else I'll be forced to leave sooner.

I have already talked to my friend who actually got me the job there and suggested I have to tell my manager about my resignation as early by the second week of September. I'm scared since that is in a few weeks, but hey, on the bright side, I'll be free from the company and I can look forward to the future and hopefully, make it a better one.

I've been looking some blogs and tumblr accounts of random people and seems like their having fun so I might as well take a cue from them and just enjoy what I have. I hope my manager takes my resignation well and shall not hold me against my will.

It seems weird to me that a 20 year old guy like me still don't know how to drive. Not that I've never thought about wanting to cause I've been dreaming of learning how to drive for a long time everyday. Even my cousins who are way younger than me drives and I feel such a...nevermind. A lot of my high school friends have taken driving lessons and got their driver's license already.

Last Monday, as me and my mom were waiting for a taxi for a ride to the mall, my mom suddenly opened up this discussion. We were waiting for so long for a vacant taxi to pass by so I'm glad she brought up the topic. She told me that maybe I should learn how to drive. At first I thought that she was just kidding around like she usually does and until she followed up that we could get a second-hand car so we don't have to spend a lot. The only problem is that I don't have time because of my work. But that kept my hopes up that my chances of learning how to drive is still alive and the thought of possibly getting a car of my own(okay me and my mom's car) is not just a dream. I don't care what car it is as long as it's in good condition. I've learned now not to expect something of a grand scale given that the budget for a car will probably low, especially since it's not the top priority and we have lots of bills to pay and I don't even know when that will happen. Once I get out of my current job, I shall promise myself to try and convince my mom to take the driving lessons. I think she won't disagree with me that I need to. It's the "getting-a-car" that's the problem but that will come soon. Hopefully, we'll get a car once I start a new job, hopefully next year. I also need to take care of some stuff after this job like getting some important government documents like SSS, NBI clearance, TIN, etc. so hopefully, I will be productive after this job.

So it's August now, which marks the 4th month of my employment. That's something to celebrate. That means I have two more months and I'm getting anxious to get out. I just had a chat with a college friend last week who just got employed and her job seems to be good and I'm tempted to go there. I just might if there's still an opening by the time I leave and If I figure out a way to commute there.

I've been having so much frustrations lately about everything. I'm so confused about the future. I'm so afraid of what's gonna happen to me. I want so many things in life but I'm starting to learn to accept how my life sucks so bad.

I'm watching Life Unexpected right now and my life seems unexpected as well.